Family Ties. Yea right
So my Mom just got out of the operating room. She had to go to Vancouver for private surgery on her back because if she didnt go private shed be on like a 2-year waiting list. By that time shed be addicted Im sure to the painkillers they had her on. Well her surgery went well.
Ive separated myself from my family as much as possible this last year but my Mom will always be close to me. I wont talk to my brother and sister anymore. There is no reason why really, except that my brother very selfish, and my sister has the family thing going on.
Im forced to socialize with my father and I know he has done a lot for me, but if you remember about 8 months ago he freaked out one night and he told me things that he can never take back. All his built up frustration for me since I was a child came out that night. Told me shit like he hated me as a child, that he wished I stayed in reform school and didnt fuck up the family..yadda yadda yadda. So as soon as I get back to Calgary Im going to be pushing him away from me as much as possible. The only person I really care to keep close is my Mom. Yea sounds Momma Boyish I know, but through all the fucked up shit Ive done in my life she has always been there for me and believed in me when no one else would.
Heres to loving your friends because throughout my life they have been my family.
seeing the family again is tough when you're not close to them anymore. especially when you have issues with them.
yeah i know what you mean...my mom spilled all her years of hatred for me and how she wished she hadn't had me and she thinks i ruined her life. but i already sorta knew that by how she treated me. she's never tried to take it back and she doesn't really want to fix things. she just calls me when she wants something and ignores me the rest of the time. but i like that she ignores me. it's bad though. she's dying. but she's been dying my whole life. it's hard to feel guilty when she doesn't like me very much.
my friends have always been my family...sadly more fickle of a family than i'd hope but it works...
big hugs and best of luck with facing the family <hugs>
it's so nice of there to be there for your mom though, especially given the emotional ringer it will put you through to see the other family members.