Still working the same job but starting to have a light loathing for it. I'm reading more which is good. I am still single and sexless. Still broke. I am going to the bar less. I am smoking less. I also have been thinking nonstop of bad memories and have been terribly worried about the future. I have desided that the only way this is going to stop is if I start changing my rut of a lifestyle, if you can call a rut that. Which means less of all the self destuctive behavior and more mentally stimulating behavior. Also, it means I am thinking about quiting smoking and that I need to get back on weight watchers and finding a new job. This wasn't much of a blog but it's an update. Plus my ass is asleep from sitting in this chair.
mekanik:
Good luck quitting smoking. The good part is that you'll have more money to spend on other things. I think that's where my motivation would be. And I know the whole single and sexless part a little too well. Anyways, if you ever want to have an intellectual and boring conversation, you know where to find me. 
merlina:
good lucky.. i need stop smoking 