i guess i never considered myself a perfectionist...but maybe i am?
i'm really hard on myself in everything i do. but that's just because i believe in putting my best effort forward, whatever it is i'm doing.
sure, i may not succeed or be awesome right away, but i'll feel better knowing i gave it all i had.
problem is when i encounter people who don't give a smidge of effort. especially at work. that clashes with my thought process big time.
and at pilates lately, it's gotten really tough. i try my hardest, but sometimes my body just can't physically do it. add that to the fact that the head instructor says my feet aren't parallel when i walk or stand, and that's going to make things more difficult for me in the class, and could be doing more harm than good to my spine/back. gah.
i know i'm not the only one struggling in the class, but it sure feels like it sometimes. just when i feel like i've got the hang of something, they add something else to the mix, like ankle weights or an inner thigh ring...or endless amounts of pushup variations.
lately on the drive home i'm so exhausted and mad at myself for not kicking enough ass in class. and it makes me feel really alone. which is stupid, because i'm only 10 minutes away from seeing Dan, and that makes everything all better.
guess it boils down to not really having a girlfriend out here who i can talk about girly stuff with. Dan is awesome in every possible way...but sometimes you just need that girl power thing, you know? someone who's by my side in the class and we can trade stories and tips, and sympathize when the instructor puts us through total hell.
as a last resort i've even tried to call my mom to chat, but nothing i do is good enough for her, and she'd rather yak on endlessly about her new fiance and what wallpaper they put up this week.
all the ladies i know out here i only see maybe once a month. the only one i see on a regular basis is my officemate/friend of 4 years, amanda, and she's too back-stabbing and selfish and negative to rely on for support or anything. she's a know it all. and if she doesn't know it, she doesn't want to talk to you about it.
cliff notes: if you are a cool chicky mama, please fedex yourself out here so we can do some girl stuff. i'm having massive withdrawal.
and yes, i'd love some cheese with my whine
i'm really hard on myself in everything i do. but that's just because i believe in putting my best effort forward, whatever it is i'm doing.
sure, i may not succeed or be awesome right away, but i'll feel better knowing i gave it all i had.
problem is when i encounter people who don't give a smidge of effort. especially at work. that clashes with my thought process big time.
and at pilates lately, it's gotten really tough. i try my hardest, but sometimes my body just can't physically do it. add that to the fact that the head instructor says my feet aren't parallel when i walk or stand, and that's going to make things more difficult for me in the class, and could be doing more harm than good to my spine/back. gah.
i know i'm not the only one struggling in the class, but it sure feels like it sometimes. just when i feel like i've got the hang of something, they add something else to the mix, like ankle weights or an inner thigh ring...or endless amounts of pushup variations.
lately on the drive home i'm so exhausted and mad at myself for not kicking enough ass in class. and it makes me feel really alone. which is stupid, because i'm only 10 minutes away from seeing Dan, and that makes everything all better.
guess it boils down to not really having a girlfriend out here who i can talk about girly stuff with. Dan is awesome in every possible way...but sometimes you just need that girl power thing, you know? someone who's by my side in the class and we can trade stories and tips, and sympathize when the instructor puts us through total hell.
as a last resort i've even tried to call my mom to chat, but nothing i do is good enough for her, and she'd rather yak on endlessly about her new fiance and what wallpaper they put up this week.
all the ladies i know out here i only see maybe once a month. the only one i see on a regular basis is my officemate/friend of 4 years, amanda, and she's too back-stabbing and selfish and negative to rely on for support or anything. she's a know it all. and if she doesn't know it, she doesn't want to talk to you about it.
cliff notes: if you are a cool chicky mama, please fedex yourself out here so we can do some girl stuff. i'm having massive withdrawal.
and yes, i'd love some cheese with my whine
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Went on my "date" tonight.. I'll update my journal sometime and post about it there.
I'm not attracted to him
GO LOOK AT MY NEW HAIRCOLOR BIOTCH!!