sexybeast

I've had a lot on my mind tonight about my life and what I've been through. I figure I'd post about it, just to maybe vent or something, but I tend to talk and type too much. To sum it up, I've had a rough life, part of it was abuse as a kid. At times, I guess depending on whatever crazy state of mind I was in, I would get hit and I'd get right back up or go right back to what I was doing, knowing that I was going to get hit again. I think it wasn't always just knowing I was going to get hit again, but getting up to get hit again. I'm sure I could have just stayed down, but I didn't. It feels like that's a lot of what my life's been like.

This pneumonia isn't bad compared to other things that have happened. It just seems like a small reminder. I keep trying to ignore it, but it won't go away and it's wearing me out. Fortunately, I've always been a strong person. I'm going to get a few hours of sleep and hopefully I don't wake up coughing again, that's a painful way to start the day.

When I get back up from this, I think I'm going to have to do more than just get back up. Until then, I have to go to sleep. I keep yawning and it hurts every time. :yawn: