today as I looked at my fam across the dinner table at our mothers day day of hell for me I came to the conclusion im adopted because there's no way in hell im related to these people! it was sheer boredom and a pain in the ass, I pretended to be asleep with the head phones on so I would not have to talk to people. it just reminds me when I was a kid I just so wanted to be adopted by the Addams fam I would watch there TV show and just felt like I had more in common with them than my boring fam. I know I always have been the odd one of the fam and I would not have it either other way. and I noticed a pattern with them and my depression it always seems to happen when they are around I know that seems bad to say but I was day dreaming about taking a five year break from them just to get away. but I know they would track me down somehow then i would have to tell them the truth and that is ''you people drive me nuts!!!!!!!!'' 