serudeboi

You know its really great when your drunk and you start to realize things that youve been so damn successful at hiding, even from yourself. My soul suffers and I must confront my pain or must I continue to suffer, for the only way to relieve my suffering is to cause another suffering. I have always chosen the second path but I am old and tired beyond my years, it is time to try 'nother. I know that its her damn fault for being insensitive and oversensitive at the same time. Every oath I have sworn before her and her threats I have kept to the letter, yet time and again she has broken not only the letter but the spirit of 'greement we have ever made. This year I have learned to A) Stop living in fear of her B) Erase the scars of the past and cease to live in the shadows of anger and hatred, but can I and should I C) ........
WHy is it when I type this that quote from Titus keeps popping into my head "...I have dug the dead friends of men from the graves and placed them at their friends doors, just when they thought their grief to be gone and carved into their flesh in roman letters "LET NOT MY SORROW DIE""
Sorry if I got the quote wrong but the ideas still there and it wont get out of my head. Its what shes done to me but I still fear doing it to her, even if its necessary to save my own happiness. Oh well, goodnight.