I turned 34 on Thursday and there was no dramatic feelings or feeling bad or anything even remotely like it. I've been feeling very upbeat the past week and I hope it continues. You know, I'm not going to lie, I think about NJ very very often. Whenever I'm doing something here that's boring or stupid, I think about my decision. I think about the life and friends I had there, but I only seem to remember the good memories which is usually followed by a desire to move back there. I don't know why my brain seems to block out all the misery I had there and I know I had more misery than good moments..all of which was brought on to me by myself. The biggest issue though regarding 'moving back' is can I be by myself? Unfortunately, I don't think I'm there yet. The biggest thing that's happened to me since being thrown into the army (and I say thrown because military service here is not voluntary, every male has to go) has been improvement on my social skills with others. I just want to be able to defeat my current demons so that I can prepare to battle with bigger ones.
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