I'm only doing this because I want to document whats going on the past week but I really don't feel like it. Mentally I feel very unmotivated and lazy but physically I have been going to the gym, in fact I went twice a day two days and hopefully today. I'm at 94.5 now, I did manage to make it down to 93.8 the other day, but that joy was short lived. I seem to be getting more and more tired the more I go and I think it might be cause I'm not eating properly, or well, I'm just not eating enough...never thought I'd say that...god it would be soooo cool if I could get to 93.5 today and tomorrow at 92 but I'd be happy with 93...I hate people, I hate me, and I hate life. I'm not interested in putting in all the hard work necessary to make changes. I've been gambling again...well, technically speaking, I've been playing all these casino games online, for free, but nevertheless, it's still gambling...wahh..someone just shoot me
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