hello again dear old blog. I overdosed, felt everything inside me collapsing and yet I was not going to sleep, so I called 911..not cause I wanted to live, but because of the pain. So it looks like I'm going to do the same thing again. I will keep trying this until I get it right. I do not deserve to live alone and if I'm such a great guy, I don't understand why this is such a hard process for me to get. Everyone else gets to experience love, why not me? Am I really that ugly or obscene to look at? Anyway, I'm gonna tell my 18 year old friend how I truely feel, probably scare her, and then hopefully be dead. D E A D. I hope anyway. Nirvana is such a comforting thing to me. I'm so glad Kurt got to be in a band and perform live and all.
heartbaker:
Everyone deserves to be loved. Maybe you just haven't found the right person. You shouldn't give up. If you tried and didn't succeed, that is a sign that you should stick around. I know you don't know me. But I'm here if you need to talk. Please don't give up
