CAVLDRON EI8HT <> BELIEF.
[ Now playing in Demon Tribe Hollow... "Bite It, You Scum (Live at Space At Chase, New York City, Winter 1991)" by GG Allin from Hated ]
Oh lord I so do not have my thumb on the pulse of modern, feel-good, slap-each-other-on-the-back (and/or ass), aren't-superheroes-neat modern society.
That is some silly shit, if you ask me. I much prefer looking under the rocks of the world's not-so-pretty and violently-subversive goings on. But at the same time, I don't so the goth thing very well. This is more like Aleister Crowley-ism with a decidedly misanthropic bent, despite often having tongue firmly planted in cheek.
I don't think it's that I don't like people, rather it's that I really don't mind not being around them. I mean, if I come to happen upon a small cadre of highly like-minded folk with black-within-black senses of humor and a fervent desire to see a real demon or devil, despite knowing they don't exist, I might be happier than I am right now.
For now, though, and perhaps for the rest of my life (who knows?), I'm going to have to make do with only having the profundity of that sort of dichotomy of beliefs in myself and that's OK. It's sort of like wearing Make Love Not War" on a battle helmet while gunning down scores of enemy combatants. I mean it, but I don't.
And that's certainly not to say that I don't have a tender side to me. It's there, but it's not often reinforced. And I know it might be an immature reference to cite, but I always loved two quotes from the movie, Heat. The first is spoken by the film's hero, LAPD Lieutenant Vincent Hanna (adeptly played, as always, by Al Pacino), when he says I gotta hang on to my angst. I preserve it because I need it. It keeps me sharp, on the edge, where I gotta be." And the second is a reply to that statement, made by Hanna's better half, Justine, and she says You don't live with me. You live among the remains of dead people."
I don't know, they just sound great. Michael Mann knew what the fuck he was doing when he wrote that movie. (Basically, Mann *always* knows what the fuck he's doing.) I heart that dude. And even though those lines perhaps don't really describe the true me, I feel they might support at least in some subtle way how I appear to the rest of the world. I like bad vibes as a kind of kink their perverseness fascinates me and sometimes I entertain them in a serious and frank manner, but only academically. What I mean is, I don't think I truly have them in my soul.
And to somehow inexplicably underscore that sentiment, here's a wonderful performance by a hero of mine, the congenial and classy, Mr. GG Allin. His insane dad named him Jesus Christ Allin (no lie, that was his legal name for the first six years of his life), but he'll always be GG to his adoring public, that group including me.
So this is one of the entertainer's most infamously charming little numbers, a slow crooner called Bite It, You Scum". And a live version, no less. (GG was always known for his adventurously transgressive concert appearances.)
Please do enjoy. And say hi" to lil' Winky when you see him. (You know what I mean.)
[ Now playing in Demon Tribe Hollow... "Bite It, You Scum (Live at Space At Chase, New York City, Winter 1991)" by GG Allin from Hated ]
Oh lord I so do not have my thumb on the pulse of modern, feel-good, slap-each-other-on-the-back (and/or ass), aren't-superheroes-neat modern society.
That is some silly shit, if you ask me. I much prefer looking under the rocks of the world's not-so-pretty and violently-subversive goings on. But at the same time, I don't so the goth thing very well. This is more like Aleister Crowley-ism with a decidedly misanthropic bent, despite often having tongue firmly planted in cheek.
I don't think it's that I don't like people, rather it's that I really don't mind not being around them. I mean, if I come to happen upon a small cadre of highly like-minded folk with black-within-black senses of humor and a fervent desire to see a real demon or devil, despite knowing they don't exist, I might be happier than I am right now.
For now, though, and perhaps for the rest of my life (who knows?), I'm going to have to make do with only having the profundity of that sort of dichotomy of beliefs in myself and that's OK. It's sort of like wearing Make Love Not War" on a battle helmet while gunning down scores of enemy combatants. I mean it, but I don't.
And that's certainly not to say that I don't have a tender side to me. It's there, but it's not often reinforced. And I know it might be an immature reference to cite, but I always loved two quotes from the movie, Heat. The first is spoken by the film's hero, LAPD Lieutenant Vincent Hanna (adeptly played, as always, by Al Pacino), when he says I gotta hang on to my angst. I preserve it because I need it. It keeps me sharp, on the edge, where I gotta be." And the second is a reply to that statement, made by Hanna's better half, Justine, and she says You don't live with me. You live among the remains of dead people."
I don't know, they just sound great. Michael Mann knew what the fuck he was doing when he wrote that movie. (Basically, Mann *always* knows what the fuck he's doing.) I heart that dude. And even though those lines perhaps don't really describe the true me, I feel they might support at least in some subtle way how I appear to the rest of the world. I like bad vibes as a kind of kink their perverseness fascinates me and sometimes I entertain them in a serious and frank manner, but only academically. What I mean is, I don't think I truly have them in my soul.
And to somehow inexplicably underscore that sentiment, here's a wonderful performance by a hero of mine, the congenial and classy, Mr. GG Allin. His insane dad named him Jesus Christ Allin (no lie, that was his legal name for the first six years of his life), but he'll always be GG to his adoring public, that group including me.
So this is one of the entertainer's most infamously charming little numbers, a slow crooner called Bite It, You Scum". And a live version, no less. (GG was always known for his adventurously transgressive concert appearances.)
Please do enjoy. And say hi" to lil' Winky when you see him. (You know what I mean.)