cauldron nine <> DETERIORATOR.
[ Now playing in Demon Tribe Hollow... Swamp Song (DTH track 5,795 of 56,999) by Tool from Undertow ]
I have a doctor's appointment set up for this Friday at 2p. My brother seems to think I shouldn't wait that long, but I know I'm good for it. I had the most pronounced dysrhythmia I've ever had in my life Saturday night. My irregular heartbeat actually started way back in 2006 as a result (I believe) of not eating enough. It resurfaced in 2010 as a result (once again, I believe) of not eating enough. Of course, therefore I feel it really only becomes pronounced when I cut down on my eating, and this does, in fact, seem to be the case.
So I think I can be saved. I sure as hell don't want to go out like Karen Carpenter, but I cannot effectively discount the notion that I may have done permanent damage by eating too little. (Go ahead and call me "Aaron Carpenter" - hey, she was a drummer, too!) I've also noticed, through the years, that I no longer experience hunger.
All of this, of course, is unsettling and creepy to me, in a bad way. However, creepy, to me, can never really be all that bad. Creepy is the new cool, as far as I'm concerned. And I love the movie 1408, with its use of We've Only Just Begun as the motif signaling the beginning of the haunting. So haunting and sad, especially considering Karen's very premature, unnatural demise.
Anyway, I haven't worked out in three weeks, so tonight's the night to get back into it, for better or worse. If I croak, you'll all be able to tell because I won't update tomorrow night. Pour out a bit of a 40 for me, "toss me in a Hefty, and put me in the ground".
[ Now playing in Demon Tribe Hollow... Remyxomatosis (Christian Vogel Remix) (DTH track 5,796 of 56,999) by Radiohead from Com Lag: 2plus2isfive ]
[ Now playing in Demon Tribe Hollow... Swamp Song (DTH track 5,795 of 56,999) by Tool from Undertow ]
I have a doctor's appointment set up for this Friday at 2p. My brother seems to think I shouldn't wait that long, but I know I'm good for it. I had the most pronounced dysrhythmia I've ever had in my life Saturday night. My irregular heartbeat actually started way back in 2006 as a result (I believe) of not eating enough. It resurfaced in 2010 as a result (once again, I believe) of not eating enough. Of course, therefore I feel it really only becomes pronounced when I cut down on my eating, and this does, in fact, seem to be the case.
So I think I can be saved. I sure as hell don't want to go out like Karen Carpenter, but I cannot effectively discount the notion that I may have done permanent damage by eating too little. (Go ahead and call me "Aaron Carpenter" - hey, she was a drummer, too!) I've also noticed, through the years, that I no longer experience hunger.
All of this, of course, is unsettling and creepy to me, in a bad way. However, creepy, to me, can never really be all that bad. Creepy is the new cool, as far as I'm concerned. And I love the movie 1408, with its use of We've Only Just Begun as the motif signaling the beginning of the haunting. So haunting and sad, especially considering Karen's very premature, unnatural demise.
Anyway, I haven't worked out in three weeks, so tonight's the night to get back into it, for better or worse. If I croak, you'll all be able to tell because I won't update tomorrow night. Pour out a bit of a 40 for me, "toss me in a Hefty, and put me in the ground".
[ Now playing in Demon Tribe Hollow... Remyxomatosis (Christian Vogel Remix) (DTH track 5,796 of 56,999) by Radiohead from Com Lag: 2plus2isfive ]