I had the worst possible weekend I could have imagined. Seriously. TWO deaths in the family. Early Saturday morning my Great Aunt Josephine passed in her sleep at the nursing home, she was 92. That was bad news #1.
11:00am My little sister had a soccer game and pretty much refused to play the entire game so that was quite possibly the most boring thing I've ever sat through watching a bunch of 6 year old girls run around fighting over a soccer ball and not making a single damn goal.
12:30pm we go see Grandpa Joe who has been in the hospital for about two weeks, knowing he's nearing the end, not knowing how near he actualy is. I'm glad I went to see him only because I got to tell him I loved him one last time and say goodbye, but at the same time I wish I didn't have to see him like that. He was going through severe renal failure, his kidneys and liver were shutting down and the dialysis that the doctors insisted was the only thing that would keep him alive is what drained the last little bit of strength he had left. He could eat, could barely talk, couldn't even sit himself up.
I really hope that image fades. I don't want to remember him like that. He passed Sunday morning.
Sunday afternoon after recovering from that news and downing a few stiff jack n cokes. I headed to the county fair hoping to distract my mind and who do I run into? The girls I used to be able to call my best friends who haven't so much as called me in months even though I've been in the hospital more times than I can remember, lost my job, my house, my boyfriend, and what do they have to say to me? "Why didn't you make it to the bachelorette party or the wedding or this party or that party?!" Well girls I had to quit drinking because of all my medical shit if you bothered to check in on me you might have known that. At this point they grab my waist asking why I've lost so much weight... I just nod... yeah I've been really fucking sick and where have you guys been? Partying.
Anyway....
On a completely different note... last attempt at getting rid of the eclipse that's hanging over my head.
I've posted several blogs about it before and have yet to get rid of the damn thing. I'm tired of looking at it, tired of stressing over it. I want it GONE. Here's the eBay motors link for anyone who's even remotely interested. Please don't suggest posting it in SG Sales group because I'm tired of other SGs hate messaging me about spamming because I'm not an SG yet. So the blog link is all you get. There are pictures posted in my attachments file, myspace albums and on the eBay listing. Any questions just msg me...
Sorry for the novel
11:00am My little sister had a soccer game and pretty much refused to play the entire game so that was quite possibly the most boring thing I've ever sat through watching a bunch of 6 year old girls run around fighting over a soccer ball and not making a single damn goal.
12:30pm we go see Grandpa Joe who has been in the hospital for about two weeks, knowing he's nearing the end, not knowing how near he actualy is. I'm glad I went to see him only because I got to tell him I loved him one last time and say goodbye, but at the same time I wish I didn't have to see him like that. He was going through severe renal failure, his kidneys and liver were shutting down and the dialysis that the doctors insisted was the only thing that would keep him alive is what drained the last little bit of strength he had left. He could eat, could barely talk, couldn't even sit himself up.
I really hope that image fades. I don't want to remember him like that. He passed Sunday morning.
Sunday afternoon after recovering from that news and downing a few stiff jack n cokes. I headed to the county fair hoping to distract my mind and who do I run into? The girls I used to be able to call my best friends who haven't so much as called me in months even though I've been in the hospital more times than I can remember, lost my job, my house, my boyfriend, and what do they have to say to me? "Why didn't you make it to the bachelorette party or the wedding or this party or that party?!" Well girls I had to quit drinking because of all my medical shit if you bothered to check in on me you might have known that. At this point they grab my waist asking why I've lost so much weight... I just nod... yeah I've been really fucking sick and where have you guys been? Partying.
Anyway....
On a completely different note... last attempt at getting rid of the eclipse that's hanging over my head.
I've posted several blogs about it before and have yet to get rid of the damn thing. I'm tired of looking at it, tired of stressing over it. I want it GONE. Here's the eBay motors link for anyone who's even remotely interested. Please don't suggest posting it in SG Sales group because I'm tired of other SGs hate messaging me about spamming because I'm not an SG yet. So the blog link is all you get. There are pictures posted in my attachments file, myspace albums and on the eBay listing. Any questions just msg me...
Sorry for the novel
Usually when shit goes wrong in your life is when you look around and say "Damn,my friends really suck ass".
But that's what makes finding a few good ones worthwhile. I'd rather have the friend that held my hair when I puked than the one that got me drunk. That used to mean a lot more before I cut off my hair