seriouskate

Ugh. Much to update. Not enough time now. Must update later. I am trying very hard to find my gratitude for waking up, having a nice apartment, a number of extremely kind people in my life, enough money to feed and clothe myself, a good education, a warm cup of coffee and a full pack of cigarettes.

I'm pretty damn lucky. I just wish this clutching feeling in my chest would go away. It feels like my chest is literally caving in on itself. It is not a physical malady and for that I should also be grateful. It is, however, the feeling I get knowing deep down that I have lost the person I am in love with.