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We are supposedly leaving here for another place but don't know when. My squad and I talk about home alot and just want to leave this place. I know we only have about 2-3 months left but as it gets closer it gets painful like it did for leave.
My ex-girlfriend wants to get back together after sending me a letter that its probably best we didn't. This back and forth thing has been going on for a long time. She can't decide if she loves me in such a way. I am probably going to wait to do anything till I leave this place. I am probably not going back. She doesn't deal well with change or things not under her control. I have changed alot and life seems to love curves, but most of all she can't control me. I have that rebellious nature and hate to be controlled. Why am I in the Army? I grant limited control sometimes if I feel it is the right thing but am going to rebel if someone takes advantage of it. Anyway I told her how I feel and am waiting her response.
I'm doing fine otherwise. Just waiting for orders to leave or stay or that they don't know yet. I don't care right now. Neither do my squad. I am trying to figure out how things are going to work if I try to take over my father's business when I leave the Army. He wants me to, and to have my own business would be great. I know the first years are going to suck trying to go back to school and working but if I pull it off I have something that I can start a "normal" life. I know my life will never be normal but closer.
I hope you all are well. Take care