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I hope Everyone is doing well.
I hear we are moving yet again and no internet. I am not happy about this but will try to maintain contact when I can. I can't even contact my family except through the slow ass mail.
I have had a couple hard weeks and kinda lost my temper a few times. It seems that in life things are not controllable. We hold the illusion that they are. Love for example. Its some thing every one needs but can't control others to love you. When I went to Colombia to find my biological mother I thought I was in control. I found out how hard and how delicate a situation it would be if i was to continue searching. Here in the Army in this country we are trained to deal with the uncontrollable by letting some things slide and reacting to things that can be swayed. Lately I've given up trying to be incontrol of every aspect of life and consentrate on breathing. Its hard when people want to kill you because your American. Mortars still fall and bullets still fly over head occasionally letting us know that we are still in danger. I chose this life so I cannot complain. I chose to be here so I would know things. Knowlege that made me stronger as a person but sacrifice the ignorance and the bliss. I want to protect my family and so that people in America, yes you reading this, don't have to worry about IEDs in the street or suicide bombers or fire fights. I chose this because I know what its like in Colombia, extreme beauty with extreme violence. I know more things now and chose such knowing that they are irreversible. Its a chance I made.
Love is a chance.
Life is a chance.
Death is a chance.
Nothing is for certain.
I choose to live and love. That is my choice any more.
I hope you all are doing welland will contact you when I can.
Cuidate