I smoked for maybe 10 years and then stopped a few years ago. Never since have I had a cigarette, but do have the occassional clove. Back in February, 2 friends from out of town came to stay with me for a long weekend.... one is a smoker and the other a social smoker. Since we were going to some pubs, etc.... I figured I'd get some cloves for the weekend. Now I'm hopelessly addicted.
Not really hopeless, nor addicted but how the hell do these things so easily pull me back to where I thought I'd never be again? Granted.... I love smoking.... I always have but it is a awful habit.
So here I sit.... every morning thinking "this is the last day" and every morning I have this nagging cough until I smoke (what sense does that make???) because I am an idiot who inhales cloves. Then every evening (when I'm about to run out.... not EVERY day) I stop at the store only to buy another pack. I justify it by saying I'm stressed and I'll stop soon and I mean it but every morning I'll smoke one and that does it for the day.... I'm done and figure I'll have a few more over the rest of the day.
Why can't smokes be good for us (and not stinky even though I do like the way cloves smell). If there were a heaven, that would definitely be a part of my heaven!
Not really hopeless, nor addicted but how the hell do these things so easily pull me back to where I thought I'd never be again? Granted.... I love smoking.... I always have but it is a awful habit.
So here I sit.... every morning thinking "this is the last day" and every morning I have this nagging cough until I smoke (what sense does that make???) because I am an idiot who inhales cloves. Then every evening (when I'm about to run out.... not EVERY day) I stop at the store only to buy another pack. I justify it by saying I'm stressed and I'll stop soon and I mean it but every morning I'll smoke one and that does it for the day.... I'm done and figure I'll have a few more over the rest of the day.
Why can't smokes be good for us (and not stinky even though I do like the way cloves smell). If there were a heaven, that would definitely be a part of my heaven!
I am the social smoker. Yep, I can go months without a cigarette or clove. But, as soon as I start drinking, I am doomed. I'll go through a pack within hours. Sigh...
Cloves are the best. Unfortunately...well, maybe, fortunately I can only tolerate about 1-2 of them a week. Otherwise, I get that nasty *hack* *cough* *weez* that makes me feel like saying, "Luke, I am your father...*weez*". Ok, I had to throw the Star Wars quote in. I know...i'm a huge dork.