I am officially tired of all the emotional bullshit. I just need to turn off my personality and turn on the robot I know I can conjur up somehow. God damnit. Napolean Dynamite is on...shit....I'll post more later
LATER:
Ok, so about this being tired thing. I'm busy. I am a busy talented person, and I take pride in it. I am playing on three senior recitals this semester, and all of them are important people in the school, as well as awesome musicians.
But, THREE senior recitals! gah! never dreamed I'd feel as important as I do now.
I'm actually feeling ok about myself, because I've had music to take my mind off of things. But, y'all, I'm fucking sick of guys flirting and not following through, and frankly I'm tired of being viewed as a piece of theoretical ass. I know, I'm not. But, and I don't mean to brag or anything, I can give a mean blowjob.
Now, my guy friends know this about me, and these guy friends aren't anything other than that, friends. Yet, they act like I am a professional call girl. Fuck, I hate that. They call me when they just break up with someone, and are like, "I miss ya, and I miss the times we had."
First of all, what times?! You act as if we dated! I've only dated four guys in my entire life. FOUR. Four really really interesting relationships that still are somewhat intact today. No, see, these other guys, about three or four of them, act as if we had dated and that I made a promise to them to come to their assistance or something.
I'M NOT A CALL GIRL.
This is the first time that I have come out and said this to y'all, coz right now, I have no reputation to hold. The way I act is the way I am.
And, the guys who act this way are the ones I've stupidly tried to tie down and date. Nuh uh...
I'm just in need for a change. I need to work on myself. I need to work on my health and that fact that I need to lose so much weight, and dammit...I want to fit into a hot senior recital dress (MY senior recital, of course)!!!
Now, if you will excuse me, I have to hang out with my best friend who has always been there for me: Merisa.
LATER:
Ok, so about this being tired thing. I'm busy. I am a busy talented person, and I take pride in it. I am playing on three senior recitals this semester, and all of them are important people in the school, as well as awesome musicians.
But, THREE senior recitals! gah! never dreamed I'd feel as important as I do now.
I'm actually feeling ok about myself, because I've had music to take my mind off of things. But, y'all, I'm fucking sick of guys flirting and not following through, and frankly I'm tired of being viewed as a piece of theoretical ass. I know, I'm not. But, and I don't mean to brag or anything, I can give a mean blowjob.
Now, my guy friends know this about me, and these guy friends aren't anything other than that, friends. Yet, they act like I am a professional call girl. Fuck, I hate that. They call me when they just break up with someone, and are like, "I miss ya, and I miss the times we had."
First of all, what times?! You act as if we dated! I've only dated four guys in my entire life. FOUR. Four really really interesting relationships that still are somewhat intact today. No, see, these other guys, about three or four of them, act as if we had dated and that I made a promise to them to come to their assistance or something.
I'M NOT A CALL GIRL.
This is the first time that I have come out and said this to y'all, coz right now, I have no reputation to hold. The way I act is the way I am.
And, the guys who act this way are the ones I've stupidly tried to tie down and date. Nuh uh...
I'm just in need for a change. I need to work on myself. I need to work on my health and that fact that I need to lose so much weight, and dammit...I want to fit into a hot senior recital dress (MY senior recital, of course)!!!
Now, if you will excuse me, I have to hang out with my best friend who has always been there for me: Merisa.