Ah Ah AH...
Well, things are slightly looking up and down for me.
I just want this semester to go away!
Turns out the charity event with the big shot baseball guys (hott baseball guys might I add) was a fluke. They wanted a jazz band instead.
C'mon! Harps are great for all occasions! haha, nah, I'd probably milk the money for all it was worth. They were going to pay, you know. I was going to charge them $150 and hour, for two hours. $300 bucks could do awesome shit for me right now lol.
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Paul Varela: hey hannah
Donkey: hey
Paul Varela: how you doin
Donkey: tired
Paul Varela: why?
Donkey: out with merisa
Paul Varela: doin what
Donkey: just bein ourselves
Donkey: slept over last night
Paul Varela: cool, so like what kind of stuff did you guys do
Donkey: watched snakes on a plane
Paul Varela: lol
Paul Varela: the title tell the entire movie
Donkey: yeah
Paul Varela: i just read your new blog, hannah tell me the truth, am i one of those guys you said
Donkey: yes
Donkey: thats what really ticked me off this time
Donkey: is that you werent talking to me and then boom, the minute you split with her you talk to me
Donkey: its not just you tho
Donkey: its every guy
Paul Varela: im sorry hannah
Donkey: nah, im used to it
Donkey: it was just...my ex was giving me shit about breaking his heart, when he fell "in love" with me, and he is 29
Donkey: he has a kid, is "divorced but not really"
Paul Varela: yea
Donkey: i mean, it just got irritating
Donkey: BLARGHH!
Donkey: but my steam has dissipated
Paul Varela: ok
Paul Varela: so wait, since you said yes does that mean you dont want to talk to me anymore simce im anoyying?
Donkey: no, thats not it.
Paul Varela: explain to me hannah, what am i
Donkey: you, paul, are a guy i was interested in once upon a time. you met me first, and it was awkward, i kissed you and i thought you hated me. then the next thing i know you talk to me and we start having sex. then you get attached
Paul Varela: but im not attached anymore
Donkey: well it might be true. but once we started having sex you acted as if we were dating
Donkey: i acknowledged that you and i were not dating, and that we were just messing around.
Donkey: because i thought you just wanted sex.
Donkey: most men do
Paul Varela: what did you want
Donkey: yeah, and that makes me a whore blah blah... when i first contacted you way back when, i wanted a relationship
Donkey: you didnt
Paul Varela: yea
Donkey: and thats where i went wrong
Donkey: i tried to entice you into dating me, and once you sent off the vibe that you didnt like it, i backed off
Paul Varela: yea
Paul Varela: well what do you want now
Paul Varela: brb
Donkey: idk. im just tired of certain people being this way towards me. jon did that to me when we broke up. he wanted sex and only sex and he talked me into a one night stand thing. and then it became no big deal for me to do that kind of stuff, because i felt like i had plenty of guys to choose from and blah blah, but now i feel as if all these guys just want to be 'friends' because they know im nice, and they know what i can and will do
Donkey: i just want to know if you are a true friend, or one of those guys
Paul Varela: you want to know the truth
Donkey: yea
Paul Varela: i want to be your friend, thats why i came back, i missed talkin to you. the sex was just a lil something, but i didnt want just that. and i really dont need, all i want is be a friend like we use to. like when we went to see your resitle
Donkey: ok, see thats what i needed. thanks
Donkey: why cant guys be more like you dammit
Paul Varela: bc im unique
Donkey: they always say shit like, 'i like you and want to be with you, but if you dont want that then we can just fuck'
Donkey: lol
Paul Varela: guys will be guys
Donkey: yes they will.
Paul Varela: you just need to know how to root out all the weeds
Donkey: lol yes i do
Paul Varela: ^_^ *hugs*
Donkey: *huggles*
