I'm sitting here at 2:41am having spent the day bouncing between unpaid overtime work and moments of fleeting inanity.
It's a strange existence, some aspects of my life are happening with greater ease than others. It amuses me how your own life and happiness seem to work using stampede theory (the pack moves at the speed of the slowest animal). So if one aspect is slowing you down, everything else seems to be throttled back.
I'm in good health, although overweight and unfit. I'm fairly happy in most areas at the moment. My ex is dating again which is great for her, she does better with the supportive nature of a relationship behind her. Only today did I realise that it's been 9 months since we decided to go our separate ways; a move that's been more positive for me than her, but she's in a good place with it now.
I've found "myself" again now, I expect I shall continue to find myself for the rest of the year (was with her for 5 years, so not been single for a LONG time).
I'm cool with it all though, I'm happy not having any female involvement whatsoever. My work has been so hectic she'd have dumped me for sure anyway, so had I been dating it would have ended in disaster.
There's one girl in this world I'd do pretty much anything for, so unless she decides she wants me I'm going to keep my head down, get the next 5-6 weeks out of the way and see how things look from there. It's a curious existence being me.
Still, it's not a bad thing when you're happy being you. Just a shame that things don't always work out like you hope.
It's a strange existence, some aspects of my life are happening with greater ease than others. It amuses me how your own life and happiness seem to work using stampede theory (the pack moves at the speed of the slowest animal). So if one aspect is slowing you down, everything else seems to be throttled back.
I'm in good health, although overweight and unfit. I'm fairly happy in most areas at the moment. My ex is dating again which is great for her, she does better with the supportive nature of a relationship behind her. Only today did I realise that it's been 9 months since we decided to go our separate ways; a move that's been more positive for me than her, but she's in a good place with it now.
I've found "myself" again now, I expect I shall continue to find myself for the rest of the year (was with her for 5 years, so not been single for a LONG time).
I'm cool with it all though, I'm happy not having any female involvement whatsoever. My work has been so hectic she'd have dumped me for sure anyway, so had I been dating it would have ended in disaster.
There's one girl in this world I'd do pretty much anything for, so unless she decides she wants me I'm going to keep my head down, get the next 5-6 weeks out of the way and see how things look from there. It's a curious existence being me.
Still, it's not a bad thing when you're happy being you. Just a shame that things don't always work out like you hope.
ah, all the British boys on SG make me miss London. And British boys. You're cute btw. Chin up dear. :-)
95% of the time I'm one of the most chipper, cheerful, lively people you'll meet. Maybe it doesn't transfer to writing very well; maybe my rhetoric is suffering!
Thanks for the kind words kitten =D