I have just been hired on at Office Depot part-time... which is about 4 days a week, I thought I could handle it, since I have a friend who's been watching Isaac when I need her to, which isn't that often, but I trust her with him.
So I got this job on Friday, and they having me training Tomorrow (Mon. Aug. 20th) at 10am then again Tuesday Thursday and Friday Mornings... and I call my friend Friday night to let her know I'll be needing her, and get her message machine so she calles me back Saturday and tells me that she can watch him on Monday, but that she's trying to get a regular job herself and wont be able to watch him after that. So I need to find someone else...
I have no idea where to find child care, that I can afford, that's close by and that can start watching him Tuesday. So I went on to draigslist and found a couple listings and made a couple calls. I'm meeting with a woman tomorrow after I'm done at work, and she's the only person I've been able to reach.
I really thought I'd be okay to go back to work, but then I started feeling all depressed tonight after making those calls, I didn't make the conection right away, I figured I was just having one of my little depression/anxiety spells that I get from time to time. But after thinking about it I really think that I'm feeling depressed about going back to work and leaving Isaac with someone I don't know 4 days a week. And now I'm thinking that maybe I shouldn't go back to work yet, we don't 'need' the money, but it would make things alot easier.
Also I've been worring about Isaac's weight the last couple days, he was eating soo well this whole time, eating every 2 - 4 hours or so, depending on how long he slept. And now he doesn't seem to be eating as often, but he's also sleeping for longer periods, and to me he looks thinner. I'm sure it's just that he's getting taller so he doesn't look as chubby as he did to me, but it still worries me a little bit
He's what's been running through my brain lately...
"what if he's not eating enough, what if he is loosing weight, what do I do, should I really go back to work, I don't want to leave him alone, I don't want to miss anything, why am I freaking out so much, he'll be okay, I'm just stressing over nothing, but what if I'm not, what if something is wrong, what if something happens when I at work, what so I do..."
And it just kinda runs in circles like that.
So I got this job on Friday, and they having me training Tomorrow (Mon. Aug. 20th) at 10am then again Tuesday Thursday and Friday Mornings... and I call my friend Friday night to let her know I'll be needing her, and get her message machine so she calles me back Saturday and tells me that she can watch him on Monday, but that she's trying to get a regular job herself and wont be able to watch him after that. So I need to find someone else...
I have no idea where to find child care, that I can afford, that's close by and that can start watching him Tuesday. So I went on to draigslist and found a couple listings and made a couple calls. I'm meeting with a woman tomorrow after I'm done at work, and she's the only person I've been able to reach.
I really thought I'd be okay to go back to work, but then I started feeling all depressed tonight after making those calls, I didn't make the conection right away, I figured I was just having one of my little depression/anxiety spells that I get from time to time. But after thinking about it I really think that I'm feeling depressed about going back to work and leaving Isaac with someone I don't know 4 days a week. And now I'm thinking that maybe I shouldn't go back to work yet, we don't 'need' the money, but it would make things alot easier.
Also I've been worring about Isaac's weight the last couple days, he was eating soo well this whole time, eating every 2 - 4 hours or so, depending on how long he slept. And now he doesn't seem to be eating as often, but he's also sleeping for longer periods, and to me he looks thinner. I'm sure it's just that he's getting taller so he doesn't look as chubby as he did to me, but it still worries me a little bit
He's what's been running through my brain lately...
"what if he's not eating enough, what if he is loosing weight, what do I do, should I really go back to work, I don't want to leave him alone, I don't want to miss anything, why am I freaking out so much, he'll be okay, I'm just stressing over nothing, but what if I'm not, what if something is wrong, what if something happens when I at work, what so I do..."
And it just kinda runs in circles like that.
skully:
o man. good luck! i hope everything works out ok....