semjaza

Someone needs to motherfucking explain some shit to me. I've been around for a long time and there's still some shit I can't figure out. Don't bore me with platitudes or simpleton placations, I want the real deal. What's it all about? It's subjective I know, but if you know something, tell me.

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It's almost over . You figure it out.


Dorian sat on the floor of his studio and starred catatonically at the wall. His mind was blank for a long while and then a voice interrupted the silence. "Don't you ever paint anything happy?" It was her voice of course, he seldom heard anyone else's. How long ago had she asked him that question, he couldn't...
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I know I'm recycling but fuck it, I dig it .

Honour was bleeding again and absently wondered why it wouldn't stop. It couldn't have been her period, she hadn't had one in over a year thanks to the heroin and lack of nutrition. So she lay on the floor with her shoulders and head propped up against the wall watching the crotch of her...
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Hmmm... . I should write something here. The Cradle of Filth show last night was cool. I got really drunk. Going into the studio soon to record a three track demo. It's chilly out. The older I get the less I'm sure of, shouldn't it be the other way around?

...and then they told me what I should have already known... you won't meet a nice girl in a coffin.

Happy Holidays everyone

Death had a tea party today
but I wasn't invited
so here I sit
staring at you with contempt
knowing I've been here once too often
running out of illusions
inventing gods to save my sanity
to protect me from darkness, lonliness
just another human being
dripping with self-importance
amused by a squirrel
outside my window
with a nut