Tuesday Sep 23, 2003

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back up into a corner

ready to strike

senses sharpened

eyes glazed over searching
looking for the way out

there is always a way out

gonna find it if it kills me
mad mad mad mad mad

Friday Sep 19, 2003

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aren't road trips just the fuckin' coolest thing?

driving and not giving a shit about anything!!!!

washington
oregon
california
nevada
montana

beer
cigs
cussin

just not giving a fuck about nuthin'

aw
its the life

wish you weren't in my mind to fuck it all up
mad skull mad robot mad EL SUICIDO LOCO mad surreal

Monday Sep 01, 2003

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blue skies
blue eyes
endless minutes to kill

smoke till i am blue in the face
drink till i pass out
music filling my ears

all troubles disapear
for this is my reality today

all is well in my minds eye today skull

Saturday Aug 30, 2003

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i mean what the fuck

why do i always get this gut feeling that i am
doing things all wrong?

it seems like no matter what i do, i feel like this.
unless i drink myself to sleep, then i don't feel
it any longer.

why is it that everything i love is everything people tell me is bad for me?
how can i find...
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xatreyux:
i feel ya man..there are some reall fucking stupid fuckholes out there..feel better

kiss
selfcontaining:
yes...
way too many fuckholes
i know there are a few of us out there who
understand

Friday Aug 29, 2003

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fuck
fuck fuck fuck fuck

if i could, i would sleep for days at a time...
dream my life away.
life in a dream.
dream in a life.

Tuesday Aug 12, 2003

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work is just way over rated.
got there an hour late today...
caught shit for it too.... fuckers.
but hey...
if they have the ballz to fire me, then let em do it.
its not like i can't find another job.
i'm fed up with their big corporation bull shit anyway.
fuck em.
its a good thing i stole that fucking server 2 weeks ago....
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miss_piss:
wow
that is some journal entry...

you ok?
selfcontaining:
well, that depends on what you call O.K.

in the sense that i am half sane, work is somewhat bearable, i am able to sleep at night, the demons in my head havn't asked me to do anything the authorities would consider putting me away for, then yes, i am ok...

but...
there are those moments each day that i wonder if my relationship with reality is fantasy or if it is actually happening...

but i am ok...
friends in from out of town...
good times...
lotsa laughs...

off to get some more ink done...

with this said...
take care and buckle your seatbelt

Monday Aug 11, 2003

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the atreyu show last night kicked my ass...

darkest hour shredded the place up like it was nothing...
then atreyu blasted the walls down and split my ear drums into a thousand peices...
my head hurt from the explosive sounds which emitted from the speakers...

if you ever get a chance to see atreyu live, you MUST do so...
or you suck.

so fuck off...
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Tuesday Aug 05, 2003

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and now ...
what shall i do...
lights turned off...
booze in hand...
listening intently...
the voices can't find me in here...

Thursday Jul 31, 2003

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its off to the mountains for some solitude,
drinking, smoking, writing...
far far far far away from civilization and
running water.
i hope the bears don't eat me...

Wednesday Jul 30, 2003

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i'm drunk as hell again...
and in a few hours...
i'll have people screaming in my ear at wurk...
askin me this and that...
as if i know all the answers...
its best to pretend that i do know all the answers...


they like that...
they really do...
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