self1sh

I wrote this a LONG time ago.. it's either wonderful or disgusting how much hope i had..
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If this was how it was then this was how it was. But there was no law
that
>made him say he liked it. I did not know that I could ever feel what I
have
>felt, he thought. Nor that this could happen to me. I would like to
have it
>for my whole life. You will, the other part of him said. You will. You
have
>it now and that is all your whole life is; now. There is nothing else
than
>now. There is neither yesterday, certainly, nor is there any tomorrow.
How
>old must you be before you know that? There is only now, and if now is
only
>two days, then two days is your life and everything in it will be in
>proportion. This is how you live a life in two days. And if you stop
>complaining and asking for what you never will get, you will have a
good
>life. A good life is not measured by any biblical span