self1sh

I can feel it boiling up.. I can feel it getting ready to explode again...

He take shit for so long from so many people.

He never talks back.

He'll do whatever you ask of him, no questions ask.

He'll laugh at your jokes
but inside

he's actually going crazy.. the way he looks at the world just doesn't make sense

he can't say it doesnt' make sense anymore because it never really did.. he's just now noticing it

wordless, in silence he sits next to you in the car

all he thinks about on the way home is how it's hopeless...

he looks out the window at this city he hates.. stupid fucking lifeless desert he laughs.. what's here, what's here?

he turns to you and says thanks for the ride.. never really looking you in the eye

he carries his bike up the stairs because he let his ex have his car

he really just wants to get in bed and cry

but he goes inside, cracks a beer, and types this out.