Do you ever feel like your feelings are going to eat up all of your insides? Sometimes feelings are so bad that they're physically painful. I'm like the little engine that could, I think I can get over this, I think I can, I think I can. But it's so hard to get up and over that hill.
What do you guys do to cope? I think I've developed a bit of a drinking problem, so I'm going to stop drinking for now. Which is a problem because that's what I was using to numb it out. And I've deleted all the discount site shopping apps from my phone because I ordered four pairs of boots in the last three weeks. I do go to therapy, and I know it helps me work out my problems, but it also makes me think about all the things that are wrong and I come back super depressed.
I think I'm going to try yoga first. I have a yoga mat and all, I just never use it. Maybe some even breathing and all will calm my nerves. There's a website called DoYogaWithMe.com, I think I'll start there. But if anyone has any particular tips for getting in to yoga, please, let me know! It's so hard for me to intentionally make a habit of something.
Also I think smoothies might be a good idea.
There's a picture on here and I wanted it at the end but I don't think it'll let me.