selahh

i am afraid
i may be falling
but soon i am sure to be
crawling back
to this black hole
i am sure this one
will not prove to be
an asshole
pass the bowl
skin like burnt caramel
my heart is so unstable
i cannot find a label
to paste onto this jar
you travel wide and far
hopping trains
hitchhiking in cars
please don't leave
might as well be mars
love is dirty
just like you
not saying it's love
just sayin
i'm doin all i can do
not to fall to hard
for you
i'm a fool
feel like a tool
daydreaming through school
hearts on my binders
my palms
my thoughts
next to the name KNEFLER
yours is scratched
afraid i'm being too rash
trying not to scare you away
i'm too intense
my heart doesnt make sense
but this is strong as twelve horses
pulling the steam engine
hard to imagine
one year ago
you would look at me like that
let me wear your hat
lyin flat
my fathers bed is so soft
i got lost
in your arms
in your thighs
in your beautiful eyes
the third
i feel absurd
perturbed
cant put this to words
sour candy
makes my mouth raw
wish my heart wouldn't thaw
at the sound of your call
please
don't call me kid
you've got me in the middle
of whirlwinds
of the ocean
no boat and no paddle
only got a saddle
and it's just weighing me down
i throw everything away
for this small chance
a subtle glance
happenstance
read my book
love your looks
the smell of homeless
i know, i'm hopeless
in love with a memory
is it meant to be
just possibly
i want to carve
our initials
into every tree i see
so happily
would you disagree?
i want to play cards
throw balloons at cars
eat snickers bars
cookies and cream
you're just like a dream
if you leave me i'd scream
my pillow
smells like just after may
i know you'll go away
the world pulls
like donkeys at hay
like ships in a bay
how can i
how can i make you stay
just three more weeks
i'll make every leap
and bound
give you all the buttons i found
in my pockets, on the ground
our bond is round
i'm giving you all i have
could be bad
i'm a push over
push under
and i topple
i don't want to grovel
you could win any brawl
fix any tear
in my bear
dreaded hair
morning scares
forgot your nose existed
really just missed it
eat all the mac n cheese
put away the dishes please
sean connery, jeeze
like achiles
hanging from the rafters
in the air vents
dont want you to feel tense
i'll massage you all you want
but next time
i'll try not to hurt you
anyway
i bleed more
could succeed more
if i tried
but the prize
is so tarnished
i barely want it anymore
just you
just a fool
and his dog
only one gypsy in a mob
streetcorner snob
you cannot rob me
anything to you i give freely
anything but my bear