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so I was having a pretty decent day 'till about 5 minutes ago. I mentioned to my mother I wanted to go to Baskin Robbins and maybe get a little ice cream from there and she starts going off on this whole dramatic thing about how it won't fix anything, it's not worth it, nothing is going to change and shit like that. god! I even turn around and tell her I was just thinking it would taste good and I haven't been eating stuff like that for quite a while and that it has nothing to do with emotional eating or b.s. like that. it's like talking to a brick wall 'cause she just starts repeating herself again. I just said whatever and walked away.

I don't know why she seems to think that every time i want something like ice cream, it's because I'm having an emotional problem and that is how I'm solving or dealing with it. was that how I used to, yes, but I haven't for quite a while and now I'm just annoyed and agitated. I swear if we talk again tonight it will be too soon.

Now I'm tempted to go and buy just in spite. Mature I know but it's my knee jerk reaction. We'll see what I feel like tomorrow and decide to go or not.