sehkh

well, today i attended my friends graduation and now that im sitting in my fav cyber cafe i feel like typing. i guess i just have a lot of random thoughts on my mind that i just need to get out some how. so what better way then to make a fool of myself online with my blog. so yeah here i am. Rob (the guy who graduated) when to school before i did and when i left he was still going. i think it took him a good 6 years to finish but he did. im so proud of him. no i never really finished college. i was going for a degree in communications but after 3 years of it i changed it to education. did that for a year and realized my true passion was still music. so i gave it all up. actuallly it wasnt that easy there was a number of factors that caused me to give it up more so then just not wanting to do it. watching graduate makes me want to go back and finish. even if its bull shit its a degree that i can be proud to say i accomplished something. bottom line i had a chance to get a university degree and i blew it. no its not ot late no im not banned from college. its just a matter of going back talking to the dean. dont get me wrong i didnt throw away my college education to be a bum. i planed on saving my money to go to a music school. i was hoping for full sail but ill settle for anything right now that has a good program. its just a matter of saving that money. redoing my studio for the third time isnt helping that money saving situation. i just dont have the willpower to work a parttime job and do school. some people can do it i know i cant. its either one or the other. maybe i can get a job on campus though. a nice laid back one that allows me to study when i need to. i dunno. either way im really motivated to get my life back in order. the first thing im going to do is get certified in Logic Audio 7. that should not take me to long to do. then its off to make a name for myself once again in the recording world. im also going to do a fun project thats not ment for any comercial gain. just pure fun noise i guess. i want to start now but im going to save my ideas till i have logic. what better way to learn a program then to beat out a new song right out of the box with it. in anycase i really need to get things in my life in order. tomarrow is mothers day and i dont have a thing to give her. well shes not really my mother but still she did raise me. im a sucker for stuffed animals so i think ill do that. well i think ive typed up enough. half of you wont even read this lol oh well it just feels good to let it all out.