Yeah, OK, so here's an update.
First, the friends list? About to get slashed again. Nothing personal. In fact that's the best reason I can think of for dropping people. Because I either don't say much to you, or you don't say much to me. Some of you I have known for a while. Frankly if I don't really talk to you, or if you don't talk to me, then we aren't really friends, and why the fuck are we on each others list? Makes no sense to me.
My birthday. Went to Washington, visited (biological) family. Got hit on by a good looking guy and a cute girl. So that felt good.
I am now contemplating the fact that I'm getting close to 40, I don't really fit in anywhere, My job would be cool if I actually ever had any work to do. Kind of hard to pay rent, feed yourself and pay off your debts when you are only making about $100 a week. And no matter how hard I try I get nowhere and I'm a little sick and tired of it.
I'm thinking that although San Diego is a great city it's just like any other city in as much as it sucks ass when you are by yourself and broke.
I'm pretty much over talking to anyone and trying to make friends because all I get is lip service from people in this town be it business or friendship.
I'm really pretty close to moving to Washington now and crashing at my sisters for a while. I don't know what I would do for work up there, but then again I'm about starving and very near being homeless here as well. At least at my sisters I would have a roof over my head either way.
I'm really pretty bitter right now, and I am pretty much abandoning the whole attempt to be a better person thing because it really doesn't make a difference. In fact, if you want to get ahead in this world, you need to be a shallow, incensere fuck and you need to use people to get ahead.
Frankly about the only people I even give a fuck about any more is my family (both of them...) Maybe a couple of friends. When all is said and done the way I'm feeling right now, the rest of the world can pretty much eat shit and die. Athough I would appreciate them all doing it where they bother me.
Yeah. I think that's about it.
Music, haiku and all that? Fuck it, I'm not in the mood to be cute.
First, the friends list? About to get slashed again. Nothing personal. In fact that's the best reason I can think of for dropping people. Because I either don't say much to you, or you don't say much to me. Some of you I have known for a while. Frankly if I don't really talk to you, or if you don't talk to me, then we aren't really friends, and why the fuck are we on each others list? Makes no sense to me.
My birthday. Went to Washington, visited (biological) family. Got hit on by a good looking guy and a cute girl. So that felt good.
I am now contemplating the fact that I'm getting close to 40, I don't really fit in anywhere, My job would be cool if I actually ever had any work to do. Kind of hard to pay rent, feed yourself and pay off your debts when you are only making about $100 a week. And no matter how hard I try I get nowhere and I'm a little sick and tired of it.
I'm thinking that although San Diego is a great city it's just like any other city in as much as it sucks ass when you are by yourself and broke.
I'm pretty much over talking to anyone and trying to make friends because all I get is lip service from people in this town be it business or friendship.
I'm really pretty close to moving to Washington now and crashing at my sisters for a while. I don't know what I would do for work up there, but then again I'm about starving and very near being homeless here as well. At least at my sisters I would have a roof over my head either way.
I'm really pretty bitter right now, and I am pretty much abandoning the whole attempt to be a better person thing because it really doesn't make a difference. In fact, if you want to get ahead in this world, you need to be a shallow, incensere fuck and you need to use people to get ahead.
Frankly about the only people I even give a fuck about any more is my family (both of them...) Maybe a couple of friends. When all is said and done the way I'm feeling right now, the rest of the world can pretty much eat shit and die. Athough I would appreciate them all doing it where they bother me.
Yeah. I think that's about it.
Music, haiku and all that? Fuck it, I'm not in the mood to be cute.
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marginwalker2002:
We'll have to figure something out. My schedule is absolute shit until the week of the 11th. And on the 18th (possibly the 15th...) I'm outta here for four months at least.
chipawah:
Move to Key West and become a chicken catcher.. Think of the bragging rights!