It stings a bit when you have an idea and are either too distracted, busy, or lazy to act on it, then someone else seizes the idea and runs with it. This is what I found waiting for me this morning- my own lack of initiative.
On my desk this morning were two CDs with a mixture of songs- songs from bands I either love or people I love love: The Pixies, Cocteau Twins, Dead Milkmen, Low, Breeders, Elliott Smith, PJ Harvey, The Cure, etc. I thought that maybe that Todd, one of the morning show guys, left me a mix CD because we're always trading info and pop culture ephemera back and forth. So I asked him about the CDs and he says "No, that's probably Daniel that left you that." Daniel is one of the young board ops who have joined the radio station. So I say "Hmmm...wonder why he made me two mix CDs". I barely know the guy, so it seemed odd.
"Well," Todd says, "I think he's proposing a show with that stuff."
Oi.
About a year and a half ago I got it in my head to propose the exact same kind of show. Our station here plays mainstream rock stuff with just a slight bent towards, for lack of a better term, alternative. We play David Bowie, CSNY, REM, John Mayer, U2, you get the idea. But what I thought would be cool is a slightly edgier show once a week that would highlight the more "under the radar" stuff. Stuff like the bands above that just don't get the airplay.
So I had this little chestnut of an idea in the back of my head but didn't act on it. Why? I kept thinking, Oh I'll do it soon. But here's a good lesson for me. This guy beat me to it and I had all of
A YEAR to get this thing going. Blah! I'm past getting bothered by it, but I certainly hope that it lights a fire under my ass because when opportunities arise I need to take them. Not that my proposal would've necessarily been accepted. Hell, Daniel's proposal might not be accepted. But the idea was there and I just let it pass me by.
So this is a reminder to myself to carpe diem. I'm not enough of a go-getter. I undersell myself and it affects so many parts of my life. For instance- how many of my friends have really listened to the music I do. Almost none. You know why? Because I'm lazy about it. I don't truly work at it. It's like a fun thing to do when I have free time. But I miss playing in a band. I miss playing gigs. But the opportunity just keeps passing me by and I don't seize it.
It's a lesson for all of us. Get out there and do what you do, folks. Talented or not, we've got to try putting ourselves out there. I think I have a slight bit of embarrasement and insecurity when it comes to actually selling myself because there's that small voice in the back of my mind that says "People don't give a shit about this crap your peddling." That voice has been there quite awhile and it's another in the long list of issues I need to deal with.
For years I've been saying I wanted to get an original set of acoustic songs together and perform them. Just ONE set. This is a goal I set for myself years ago. How many songs do I have finished. Maybe one. That's just sad.
No more watching the world pass me by.
-s6
On my desk this morning were two CDs with a mixture of songs- songs from bands I either love or people I love love: The Pixies, Cocteau Twins, Dead Milkmen, Low, Breeders, Elliott Smith, PJ Harvey, The Cure, etc. I thought that maybe that Todd, one of the morning show guys, left me a mix CD because we're always trading info and pop culture ephemera back and forth. So I asked him about the CDs and he says "No, that's probably Daniel that left you that." Daniel is one of the young board ops who have joined the radio station. So I say "Hmmm...wonder why he made me two mix CDs". I barely know the guy, so it seemed odd.
"Well," Todd says, "I think he's proposing a show with that stuff."
Oi.
About a year and a half ago I got it in my head to propose the exact same kind of show. Our station here plays mainstream rock stuff with just a slight bent towards, for lack of a better term, alternative. We play David Bowie, CSNY, REM, John Mayer, U2, you get the idea. But what I thought would be cool is a slightly edgier show once a week that would highlight the more "under the radar" stuff. Stuff like the bands above that just don't get the airplay.
So I had this little chestnut of an idea in the back of my head but didn't act on it. Why? I kept thinking, Oh I'll do it soon. But here's a good lesson for me. This guy beat me to it and I had all of
A YEAR to get this thing going. Blah! I'm past getting bothered by it, but I certainly hope that it lights a fire under my ass because when opportunities arise I need to take them. Not that my proposal would've necessarily been accepted. Hell, Daniel's proposal might not be accepted. But the idea was there and I just let it pass me by.
So this is a reminder to myself to carpe diem. I'm not enough of a go-getter. I undersell myself and it affects so many parts of my life. For instance- how many of my friends have really listened to the music I do. Almost none. You know why? Because I'm lazy about it. I don't truly work at it. It's like a fun thing to do when I have free time. But I miss playing in a band. I miss playing gigs. But the opportunity just keeps passing me by and I don't seize it.
It's a lesson for all of us. Get out there and do what you do, folks. Talented or not, we've got to try putting ourselves out there. I think I have a slight bit of embarrasement and insecurity when it comes to actually selling myself because there's that small voice in the back of my mind that says "People don't give a shit about this crap your peddling." That voice has been there quite awhile and it's another in the long list of issues I need to deal with.
For years I've been saying I wanted to get an original set of acoustic songs together and perform them. Just ONE set. This is a goal I set for myself years ago. How many songs do I have finished. Maybe one. That's just sad.
No more watching the world pass me by.
-s6
Thank you so much for your comment on my set! Seriously that's probably the best comment I've ever received. "I've got a smile, stretched from ear to ear."
You're kitty is adorable. We should be pals.