I'm trying to vent right now:
Why is getting sex so hard for some people? Everybody talks about it like a kid talks about going to the arcade and to me sex has always seemed like a once in a lifetime thing. I'm honestly starting to think that women hate sex! I'm afraid that I'm starting to enter that state of asexuality, women just don't do it for me like they did in the past, but these feelings are constantly punctuated by short spells of thinking that women are some of the best creatures on earth. My sex drive has been lower too, I'm finding less thrills in porn, masturbation or anything of that nature, when I do masturbate I'm not excited for very long before I feel like reaching orgasm and just getting it over with. Sometimes I wish I was asexual just so I wouldn't have worry about women and everything they haven't done to me for the past 26 years. Girls sever the line so fast with me I never feel like they ever really give me a chance to prove myself. I just don't feel like I have much reason to continue to pursue them. I'm in my mid twenties, in my prime yet still heavily behind on romantic relationships. Pretty soon I'm going to be thirty and not long after I'm going to start roting till eventually the only girls I can get are at the assisted living home!
Thanks to anybody who reads this and responds.
UPDATE: still venting.
I just packed up all my porn and stuffed it in the closet. That made me feel better a little bit. It has also been a while since I took down my girly posters, gotten rid of my Maxim calender and my racy desktop wallpaper. My room looks so baron now. A perfect metaphor for how I'm felling inside.
Why is getting sex so hard for some people? Everybody talks about it like a kid talks about going to the arcade and to me sex has always seemed like a once in a lifetime thing. I'm honestly starting to think that women hate sex! I'm afraid that I'm starting to enter that state of asexuality, women just don't do it for me like they did in the past, but these feelings are constantly punctuated by short spells of thinking that women are some of the best creatures on earth. My sex drive has been lower too, I'm finding less thrills in porn, masturbation or anything of that nature, when I do masturbate I'm not excited for very long before I feel like reaching orgasm and just getting it over with. Sometimes I wish I was asexual just so I wouldn't have worry about women and everything they haven't done to me for the past 26 years. Girls sever the line so fast with me I never feel like they ever really give me a chance to prove myself. I just don't feel like I have much reason to continue to pursue them. I'm in my mid twenties, in my prime yet still heavily behind on romantic relationships. Pretty soon I'm going to be thirty and not long after I'm going to start roting till eventually the only girls I can get are at the assisted living home!
Thanks to anybody who reads this and responds.
UPDATE: still venting.
I just packed up all my porn and stuffed it in the closet. That made me feel better a little bit. It has also been a while since I took down my girly posters, gotten rid of my Maxim calender and my racy desktop wallpaper. My room looks so baron now. A perfect metaphor for how I'm felling inside.
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Just kidding.
At 26, I'd say you're in a situation where you're not as interested in pointless casual sex, and need to seek relations with women you care about and can build something with.
I say this because if you're sex drive is diminshing in the purely tactile field, you're probably going to need a mental and emotional connection with someone.
You need to fall in love; then you're libido will sky rocket.
Oh, this is REALLY FUCKING HARD TO DO. Good luck.
And yeah, you don't know me, and I don't know how I stumbled on this journal, but yeah. I've had my say.