seamus1979

well my girlfreind had her scan
she was 7 months and one day
fucking scary times
weve been through so much in this pregnancy
at the 3 month scan the doctors told us the baby had down syndrome because the baby had a thick neck
the tests came back negative on the chromosone count
the doctors then said the baby must have a heart problem
we then went and saw a cardiologist
he gave us the all clear
we where then warned the baby may have some genetic problems
now im terrified the baby could possibly have some of my problems
i developed a tumor in my face that was a real problem growing up, i had an assymetrical face that led to alot of bullying.
it was why i got into weight lifting and martail arts.
i just cant wait for my son to be born.
im just praying he is healthy.
but i think horrible thoughts.
i have 15 nephews and neices who are perfect in everyway. maybe i wont be as lucky.
its a terrible way to think. i just hope my son has none of my health problems. my mum was telling me how i spent the first two years of my life in hospital.

the pregnancy has been really hard on my girlfriend. i know every parent thinks this but we love this baby so much.
we always try and think positive things.
like we argue who the sprog is gonna look like. my gf is mixed race (half polish, half mauritian) and im irish with a bit of spanish thrown in. shes only 5ft tall with great curly hair. ive told her if my son is 6,4 with blonde straight hair im gonna be asking questions!

anyway i have to think positive.

just spent 10 hours at college and im drained. just gonna chill out on here for a while. holler if you wanna say hi and chat.