everything is so fucked up
i cant even go through another day
i feel like so much more like suicide every day
fuck everything i cant fucking succeed at anything
im losing more and more of my happiness every fucking day i just want to go to war or something and join the army
but in this fucking country and destroy as much of it...
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i cant even go through another day
i feel like so much more like suicide every day
fuck everything i cant fucking succeed at anything
im losing more and more of my happiness every fucking day i just want to go to war or something and join the army
but in this fucking country and destroy as much of it...
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b57913:
buck up buckaroo
voltaire:
I hope you are feeling better right now...... 
insomnia vibrates my body as i try to sleep
i rise to the blurryness still from the many drinks a couple of hours ago
i steer myself through the ny streets on a sunday morning
it was so cold it smelt like death
as i panhadle one person every block
i started to loose myself in the sun
and fell into the arms of fate...
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i rise to the blurryness still from the many drinks a couple of hours ago
i steer myself through the ny streets on a sunday morning
it was so cold it smelt like death
as i panhadle one person every block
i started to loose myself in the sun
and fell into the arms of fate...
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zaksmith:
i deleted your comment not because it was bad just cause i guess it's bad luck to leave SG identity clues lying around. I know her 'cause she lives nearby, worked where i bought stuff, knew my ex- and was one of the only NY suicidegirls when i started doing my SG painting project.
Thank you for the nice words i appreciate it especially coming from someone who knows the person.
Thank you for the nice words i appreciate it especially coming from someone who knows the person.
zaksmith:
hey, no problem!
thanks again
thanks again
well got kicked out of detox the first couple of hours well i kinda kicked myself out when they only gave 10 milagrams fuckers so i got so sick and me and lily flipped before we left and when we got our shit to get well cops flew in from everywhere with guns drawn and yelling in our faces and they pulled me out and...
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fdnymedic:
no prob bro ya know im there for ya ....
fdnymedic:
what happened today? give me a call.
leaving for detox tomarrow thaught i got through my detox taking bupanorphine but when that got out my system i got so fucking sick i could not believe it i was cold and twitching and crying and throwing up and shiting at the same time it was te wordt thing i ever exerienced in my life but tomarow i give myself to another addiction of...
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fdnymedic:
have have to come off it gradully i got sick when i finsihed it too so i had to get more and taper down im still doing it .
good luck
good luck
wow so many responses thanks everyone yall made me the happiest on my b day the ani difranco concert i went to was cool until the end when i got into a fight with a couple of security guards and they held me down and restrained me till the cops came but eventually let me go thank god i did not want to go to...
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fdnymedic:
yea lets hang out anytime bro...wow we can be clean together. gald you didnt go to jail that night... give me a call.
jaidee:
SEAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOLY SHIT! I LOVE YOU!
XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
jaidee
XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
jaidee
take me home to where nothing matters and smiles tear away at my teeth find me an angel please i need some breath
stear these thoughts away and brake my syringes
stear these thoughts away and brake my syringes
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les:
have a good one!
su:
Happy Birthday 
lost in life and texas cant wait to get back to ny
benni:
glad to hear that you guys made it okay... hope she gets out soon. 
ill be back. swear.
ill be back. swear.
pumpkineater:
cant even put up a tent.
i hate being around
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lily:
call me tomorrow. sorry about today.
lily:
Open your door. remember?
before i used to fall asleep i'd visit you in the fairy lands, we'd ride over the mountains for hours and wake up still institutionalized. fuck.
before i used to fall asleep i'd visit you in the fairy lands, we'd ride over the mountains for hours and wake up still institutionalized. fuck.
headed off to texas tonite with lily hpefully everything will be ok
moralitydies:
texas is hot
i wanna live in a different kind of way of life it sucks when you find out what life is really like out there and nothing is really the way you want it to be and you have to subdue yourself to everything else it makes you hate life heh i guess nothing really changes does it though just the way you respond and you...
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jadedcoca:
hey....
amirafly:
disappointment around every corner
I shudder at what makes THEM happy
hard to find escape
turn to most like minds
but still struggle to find comfort
I know
I shudder at what makes THEM happy
hard to find escape
turn to most like minds
but still struggle to find comfort
I know