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fuck you.





(oh! millions of birds in flight

i know now i will never be one of them.....)

my tarantula died.

i am now the saddest girl to have ever lived


RIP Bitey

I have a junkie heart, baby
slow me down, slow me down
because i'm speeding towards the edge.
(....but the fall will be fantastic)





[ i am determined to live forever or die trying ]

2 pills just weren't enough
the alarm clock's goin' off
but you're not waking up
this isn't happening
happening
happening
happening
happening


...........it is


[ i miss you ]

and i will leave under the covers
a summer's kiss upon the sky
like the stone face of your lover
just before he says "goodbye"
and i was certain that the seasons
could be held between my arms

i was here,
but now i'm gone

i'm gone...

"I miss your face,
although it reminds me of God"

If only those could have been my last words to him....

All I perceive now
Is the pain that is to come
After a lover has left.....


He is already gone.


(someone, anyone, SEE ME)

Someday it will please us

To remember even this...









(fuck you)

If I squeeze my eyes shut,
real tight,
I see you flying and us never dying

I hope you change by not changing at all

I squeeze my eyes shut, in a futile attempt to fight off the waves of panic that lick at my face. I begin to think of the boy with shining eyes, the boy that holds my heart ever so gently. I know that he will never break me, he will never hurt me purposely. He has seen the scars that mar my skin and my...
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it's 2:33 am and i'm waiting for my boy to call me
he is gone at the moment.

i ran out to by The Libertine on dvd today
all that johnny depp-ness makes me wanna go get me some
you know what i'm talkin' bout!
haha.

currently unemployed
uninspired
uninteresting

but there is always him
(you know who you are)

and i saw pretty fireworks...
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and i felt that everything was falling apart

then i took your hand

and you kissed me and said

"you are strong"

i love you for it