Alrighty, it's about time I update you guys on this last week.
Those on Facebook, and in some of the private SG groups here know what's going on, but I'll let you all in...
Long story short, I had an ectopic pregnancy, and went into surgery on Wednesday to have our baby and my fallopian tube removed.
It all started on Monday. Monday was our first scheduled ultrasound, and we were very excited as we were going to find out a proper due date, exactly how far along we were, and hear the heartbeat. At our first obstetrician visit, she was unable to give us an exact due date because of my irregular periods, which is why we were sent for the early ultrasound. We'd been trying for a baby, and had already known a few weeks before that, that we were already pregnant, but a proper due date, was just another giant exciting step forward for us.
According to blood tests, I was about 7 weeks along, which would have shown us a sac, the baby and the heartbeat during the ultrasound. Our excitement soon turned to worry as we saw nothing. Absolutely nothing. Even with a transvaginal ultrasound, we saw nothing. I knew something was wrong.
The results were sent straight on to our obstetrician and she sent me for emergency blood tests that afternoon, explaining that I had either had a miscarriage, or was having an ectopic pregnancy. The blood tests came back the next day, and my pregnancy levels were still very high, suggesting it wasn't a miscarriage. I was admitted to hospital straight away for observation until the next morning, incase my fallopian tube burst overnight. It was definitely ectopic.
The next morning, I was sent straight into surgery. She had to remove our bubba and my whole right fallopian tube. Bubba was about 2cms big and was already started to cause internal bleeding and rupturing, so we are very lucky we didn't wait a few more days.
It's been very rough, obviously. Coming out of surgery means I'm out of action for a while and I can't do very much other than lay here. it's hard to move. hard to do anything.I need help with everything.
And of course, losing our baby has been the hardest. it all happened so quick. On Monday we were expecting a nice ultrasound, and by Wednesday afternoon I was waking up from surgery, minus a fallopian tube and a baby.
The whole time in hospital, i was in the maternity ward, which made it even harder. There were baby things in the room everywhere, newborns crying everywhere and families and friends welcoming new babies everywhere.
Luckily, I'm home now. I was allowed out of hospital on Thursday afternoon.
Through it all though, my husband and family and friends have been amazing. I cannot believe how much support we have. And i have read every single message in my inbox, believe me.
I don't have that much strength to write back at the moment (it's even taken me days to try and write this) but i can assure you, I'm here and I'm listening and see every bit of support that's coming my way, and i truely apprecaite it. You have no idea.
Naturally, it's still very hard, and we're still grieving, but it's not stopping us from trying again, Being pregnant was the most amazing, meaningful thing to ever happen to me, and I loved every second of it. I can't wait to feel that again.
I have a thousand more things to say, and i'm sure i didn't even explain everything i wanted to, or in as much detail as i wanted to, but that's all i have for now.
Those on Facebook, and in some of the private SG groups here know what's going on, but I'll let you all in...
Long story short, I had an ectopic pregnancy, and went into surgery on Wednesday to have our baby and my fallopian tube removed.
It all started on Monday. Monday was our first scheduled ultrasound, and we were very excited as we were going to find out a proper due date, exactly how far along we were, and hear the heartbeat. At our first obstetrician visit, she was unable to give us an exact due date because of my irregular periods, which is why we were sent for the early ultrasound. We'd been trying for a baby, and had already known a few weeks before that, that we were already pregnant, but a proper due date, was just another giant exciting step forward for us.
According to blood tests, I was about 7 weeks along, which would have shown us a sac, the baby and the heartbeat during the ultrasound. Our excitement soon turned to worry as we saw nothing. Absolutely nothing. Even with a transvaginal ultrasound, we saw nothing. I knew something was wrong.
The results were sent straight on to our obstetrician and she sent me for emergency blood tests that afternoon, explaining that I had either had a miscarriage, or was having an ectopic pregnancy. The blood tests came back the next day, and my pregnancy levels were still very high, suggesting it wasn't a miscarriage. I was admitted to hospital straight away for observation until the next morning, incase my fallopian tube burst overnight. It was definitely ectopic.
The next morning, I was sent straight into surgery. She had to remove our bubba and my whole right fallopian tube. Bubba was about 2cms big and was already started to cause internal bleeding and rupturing, so we are very lucky we didn't wait a few more days.
It's been very rough, obviously. Coming out of surgery means I'm out of action for a while and I can't do very much other than lay here. it's hard to move. hard to do anything.I need help with everything.
And of course, losing our baby has been the hardest. it all happened so quick. On Monday we were expecting a nice ultrasound, and by Wednesday afternoon I was waking up from surgery, minus a fallopian tube and a baby.
The whole time in hospital, i was in the maternity ward, which made it even harder. There were baby things in the room everywhere, newborns crying everywhere and families and friends welcoming new babies everywhere.
Luckily, I'm home now. I was allowed out of hospital on Thursday afternoon.
Through it all though, my husband and family and friends have been amazing. I cannot believe how much support we have. And i have read every single message in my inbox, believe me.
I don't have that much strength to write back at the moment (it's even taken me days to try and write this) but i can assure you, I'm here and I'm listening and see every bit of support that's coming my way, and i truely apprecaite it. You have no idea.
Naturally, it's still very hard, and we're still grieving, but it's not stopping us from trying again, Being pregnant was the most amazing, meaningful thing to ever happen to me, and I loved every second of it. I can't wait to feel that again.
I have a thousand more things to say, and i'm sure i didn't even explain everything i wanted to, or in as much detail as i wanted to, but that's all i have for now.
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Much love Scotty! <3 <3