scotchbonnet

Ok, the boy with the bum knee, not that anyone cares, I am going to delve into some background information as part of the process of getting him and everything that reminds me of him out of my life. We met in college and fell madly in love in the matter of 3 months. Should have been a big red flag there, but I missed it. Over the rest of the course of my education, a big chunk was devoted to being with him 24/7. Literally. We had classes together, lived together... not healthy in the least. We went back and forth between "fucking leave!" and "let's grow old together." But the other night it was "peace the fuck out" which is a phrase I use at the end of an argument when I know I no longer want to deal with that person's shit anymore, and yes, that was all he had to offer. And it took me a while to realize this. So now I sit here, I have deleted all of our photos off of my computer and that actually made me feel good. Now I am going to go through my iTunes and iPod and delete all the songs that remind me of him, which is a lot. lol. And then it's attacking the room and getting rid of anything that has accumulated while I was with him, which includes a game cube that I don't even play anymore. In fact, I doubt that I will ever touch another video game console again which shouldn't be hard because before him, I never really played video games. The last console I truly played was the Nintendo NES, but that's another story.

So now, I have started a new chapter with a fresh crisp blank page that I must begin to fill. No more being a reclusive and hiding in my room like I used to do though high school. Haha. Pathetic as it sounds, that has been me for a little less than a month. But I don't care anymore. I am moving on. I did it physically, now I can do it emotionally.