scionreality

It's not that.

It's a trap.
It's not leaving the house all weekend.
It's getting home from work and immediately laying down, and not going to sleep.
It's not going to sleep.
It's still not going to sleep.
It's sleeping for twelve hours and waking up exhausted.
It's being exhausted constantly.
It's being in a decent mood and deciding to cut your skin a little...
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This was my Christmas gift to my mom this year.

https://www.dropbox.com/s/8rjzb593a8urf92/Primary_Come%20Together_41000.mp3

I had some of the greatest times of my life as a teenager.

I've been happier at times since then. One time, almost deliriously so. But for three or four years running, I pretty much had a constant blast.

Then, by degrees larger or smaller, those things which I thought were so great began to go away. Don't worry, I'm not going to get onto...
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Continuation.

Life grinds on in the usual ways.

My love of music is solid, but my involvement in it oscilates. It seems to be on a rising envelope now, and it's the same old thrilling newness which makes me feel more alive. I've started prodding and fumbling with my guitar a little more (it always feels so small), and learned how to play Schism on...
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It's hardest to begin.

Especially since I have nothing specific I wanted to say. If that's a put-off, then I'm sorry I wasted your important three seconds. I did, however want to just say, in general.

I'll start close to home. So: home. A long-time friend in I found ourselves in a position where we decided to buy a duplex, live in one side,...
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(Sometimes a sentence, a paragraph or several, in a book, will state well the essence of a part of myself. Sometimes I fold the corner of its page to note it for that never day when I return for it.)

"Three," a voice said.

Will listened, cold but warming, glad to be in with roof above, floor below, wall and door between too...
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