Fast week...
Maybe because i don't have any stable hours of work, stable days of work... - I mean both works, the one to get money and the one vectorizing my fulfillment -The only day i work is saturday... week end time. weird. Strangely, i really prefer not having to hang up to things like... tomorrow is thursday... thursday is a day like this. Only problem to this 'lifestyle" I am always waiting for something to happen... a change, an event, a trip... i don't know. Just something radical. I always think it's soon... and strangely, i like to wait for this mysterious, never happening event, that - i think - i could only create myself. It's not that want to change things in my life, it's all about change, perpetual, and i do think every one can only try to fulfill himself in change and evolution... just because it an experience, just because it's exploiting -in the most goood sense of the word - us. I may just say me.
I ve got too much envy... like, i ll have to light another cigarette... not because i need it, just because I want it and again and some more. Like i don't have right now the possibility - material - to accomplish all the things that i want to... -real real disgusting feeling-. I just have to wait for the work to pay. And go further. keep going further.
Beside the crap upside, this week was fun, sometimes exalting -which is always good - and with such a lack of sleep.
Nicely said.
Good nite.
Maybe because i don't have any stable hours of work, stable days of work... - I mean both works, the one to get money and the one vectorizing my fulfillment -The only day i work is saturday... week end time. weird. Strangely, i really prefer not having to hang up to things like... tomorrow is thursday... thursday is a day like this. Only problem to this 'lifestyle" I am always waiting for something to happen... a change, an event, a trip... i don't know. Just something radical. I always think it's soon... and strangely, i like to wait for this mysterious, never happening event, that - i think - i could only create myself. It's not that want to change things in my life, it's all about change, perpetual, and i do think every one can only try to fulfill himself in change and evolution... just because it an experience, just because it's exploiting -in the most goood sense of the word - us. I may just say me.
I ve got too much envy... like, i ll have to light another cigarette... not because i need it, just because I want it and again and some more. Like i don't have right now the possibility - material - to accomplish all the things that i want to... -real real disgusting feeling-. I just have to wait for the work to pay. And go further. keep going further.
Beside the crap upside, this week was fun, sometimes exalting -which is always good - and with such a lack of sleep.
Nicely said.
Good nite.
what kind of radical event are you expecting?
you're lucky to have such an unstructured life...must be nice...
before i stopped smoking i'd chain smoke through the whole pack like that, one right after another. i'm starting to get a nicotine fit thinking about it, hahahah.
hope all is well.