wow, how to start this off.....
I'm at a very low point now and I think that I should express myself to none other than the SG community.......no where else to go. My Aunt commited suicide this past week. It was a very sad thing with not only the family, but with the hundreds of friends that showed up at the service. It especially was hard on me to hear about the how's and effects it had on others, but not only that, it was very hard on me because I can relate to how she felt. She also had a disease that caused this to happen, which her three children are taking medication right now for it. Anyway this leads to me. I am not saying that I am going to commit suicide, because I ultimately cant,but I cant say that thoughts have cross my mind of what it would be like......I feel that I am very out of touch with myself. I am so lost. I don't know what to think about life. I see myself being poor. I cant see happiness. I am an extremely negative person. I have a negative outlook on everything. It's always the worst situation that pops into my minds instead of positve thoughts. I think that I am a little crazy an it upsets me a lot. There are three things that I want in life, be on my own(living conditions), have a job im happy with, and a girlfriend. For the past 10 years or so I have wanted this. I can seem to get one, eventwo of these things.......but all three seems impossible.
I don't know.... I could go on for ever on this but I dont want to think about it anymore. I am not writting this for sympathy, but knowing some of you, you wont listen, so thank you anyway......
Why did the chicken cross the road?
To get to the other side, but he was hit by a car.....
I'm at a very low point now and I think that I should express myself to none other than the SG community.......no where else to go. My Aunt commited suicide this past week. It was a very sad thing with not only the family, but with the hundreds of friends that showed up at the service. It especially was hard on me to hear about the how's and effects it had on others, but not only that, it was very hard on me because I can relate to how she felt. She also had a disease that caused this to happen, which her three children are taking medication right now for it. Anyway this leads to me. I am not saying that I am going to commit suicide, because I ultimately cant,but I cant say that thoughts have cross my mind of what it would be like......I feel that I am very out of touch with myself. I am so lost. I don't know what to think about life. I see myself being poor. I cant see happiness. I am an extremely negative person. I have a negative outlook on everything. It's always the worst situation that pops into my minds instead of positve thoughts. I think that I am a little crazy an it upsets me a lot. There are three things that I want in life, be on my own(living conditions), have a job im happy with, and a girlfriend. For the past 10 years or so I have wanted this. I can seem to get one, eventwo of these things.......but all three seems impossible.
I don't know.... I could go on for ever on this but I dont want to think about it anymore. I am not writting this for sympathy, but knowing some of you, you wont listen, so thank you anyway......
Why did the chicken cross the road?
To get to the other side, but he was hit by a car.....
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There isn't much one can say about this, cause I know it isn't easy. You just have to try and stay possitive. Find a goal or something and don't think bad things are going to happen.