Appreciated the comments (all 2 of them). Totally right on that the current relationship is a load of B.S., at the current moment in time..... it fluctuates between kind of fun and a good time to hideous and I want to never see him again. The pendulum is at the latter at the moment. The high school crush on his fabulous friend persists, but I probably won't do anything about it at the moment. I have his email and shit but will not go there (again, at least for now).
All of this just leaves me wondering if I'm the one with the problem. What, am I one of those nutty girls who I always mocked who seems to need the drama? The guy I'm with is a decent man - would never cheat, hurt me physically or otherwise, just unambitious and on the lazy side. I just can't help feeling that THERE'S GOT TO BE MORE OUT THERE. Perhaps it is too much to ask to find a smart, sexy (tattooed!) guy who has his life on a good healthy track and appreciates me as I am and makes me laugh. If I keep wondering when it'll happen, will life just pass me by in the meantime? It is my problem that I'm never satisified with what I have?
Oh, the armchair psychology, it is painful. RETAIL THERAPY is far better. That and a nice fat martini. Oh god.
All of this just leaves me wondering if I'm the one with the problem. What, am I one of those nutty girls who I always mocked who seems to need the drama? The guy I'm with is a decent man - would never cheat, hurt me physically or otherwise, just unambitious and on the lazy side. I just can't help feeling that THERE'S GOT TO BE MORE OUT THERE. Perhaps it is too much to ask to find a smart, sexy (tattooed!) guy who has his life on a good healthy track and appreciates me as I am and makes me laugh. If I keep wondering when it'll happen, will life just pass me by in the meantime? It is my problem that I'm never satisified with what I have?
Oh, the armchair psychology, it is painful. RETAIL THERAPY is far better. That and a nice fat martini. Oh god.
I tell you I'm always looking for more and something tells me that sooner or later it finds you. All I can say is never settle for anything less than what you want and what you deserve. Life's too short to settle on almost having your dreams come true.
What your looking for exists (Or so I choose to believe because I'm still looking too) and when you find him see if he has a single brother! Until then you just gotta keep kissing frogs...
If you have the vibe then go for it. Sometime you need to stop thinking and just be.....