Its times like this when I just want to cry
and I can feel the tears welling up inside
but they never see the light of day
a tease, like the word potential
a tease that follows my life everywhere I go
you have the potential to be this but your not there you have the potential to be that but your not there.
So the logical step is to work at it. With the carrot dangling in front of my face I run and run and run until Im too tired to continue.
The carrot seems to be just that far out of reach that I may never be able to grab it.
So what do I do? Do I continue to persue the uncatchable... do I give up on and stop chasing it. Or do I languish like this in the unknown future.
I don't know what to do. I go to work and it suck, I talk with friends and it sucks, I go play in the band and it sucks, I work on this comic thing and it sucks
do you see a trend developing? But in each situation I get this "You could make it at this if you changed this" "You have the potential to be really good or even the best at this if you sacrificed part of it and played up the other parts"
Do people not understand that sometimes thats like cutting off a limb or do I not understand the theory behind cutting off a finger to save the arm.
Im so confused and frustrated right now I want to crawl into a corner and ball my eyes out. But I gotta figure this out .. whimping out won't be the best course of action will it.
mood: Well you know
Music: Thrice: Melting Point of Wax (fitting no?)
and I can feel the tears welling up inside
but they never see the light of day
a tease, like the word potential
a tease that follows my life everywhere I go
you have the potential to be this but your not there you have the potential to be that but your not there.
So the logical step is to work at it. With the carrot dangling in front of my face I run and run and run until Im too tired to continue.
The carrot seems to be just that far out of reach that I may never be able to grab it.
So what do I do? Do I continue to persue the uncatchable... do I give up on and stop chasing it. Or do I languish like this in the unknown future.
I don't know what to do. I go to work and it suck, I talk with friends and it sucks, I go play in the band and it sucks, I work on this comic thing and it sucks
do you see a trend developing? But in each situation I get this "You could make it at this if you changed this" "You have the potential to be really good or even the best at this if you sacrificed part of it and played up the other parts"
Do people not understand that sometimes thats like cutting off a limb or do I not understand the theory behind cutting off a finger to save the arm.
Im so confused and frustrated right now I want to crawl into a corner and ball my eyes out. But I gotta figure this out .. whimping out won't be the best course of action will it.
mood: Well you know
Music: Thrice: Melting Point of Wax (fitting no?)
klonopin_chugger:
dude, you are waaaaay to down on yourself, you're 21 yet you talk as if you are a middle aged hobo/drifter with nothin to look forward to. i know what it's like to be depressed and all but jeez man, you're a smart, capable guy you'll get through this....if not for yourself, do it for little Timmy