Okay so first of all thank you to those peopel who had nice words to say to me after I exploded emotionaly yesterday. The crises has been slightly averted. I just have a weird friend who is selfish and out for himself
"We always seem to, disagree, but I still enjoy their company"
-grade.
seems best to describe. But when someone who you've been good friends with for a while says they don't care about your wellbeing or whatever it tends to make me sad considering I don't often make good friends.
but anyways lets drop that. I have a question for all you SGs out there. I have been reading about this playboy thing and I was wondering do SGs (the models) acctually care about the members ... it seems like the SGs are jut annoyed by us ... at least in that thread they seem to be. It seems to me that SG is a little cliquey in its own way... The SG's hang out with SGs and rockstars or a select few members if they are lucky. I don't know maybe it just seems like its going to their head or something. Maybe I could be wrong. At least some of the SGs in Canada aren't like that. yaaay SGCanada.
The funniest thing happened today I was in class and the teacher was getting pissed at the lot of us for talking and this really hot girl who I have a slight crush on gets in trouble and is told to see the teach after class. So then this fat girl behind me asks me about my nose ring and if it hurt and how much did it hurt and how long did it take to heal and all that jazz and when I turn around the teacher is pointing at me fuming mad and says see me after class. So the two of us were told to sit at the front for the next class. I don't know if its the rest of the sememster or just the one class but the girl looked at me after and said "don't worry you get to sit with me" and gave me the thumbs up... heh aaaaallllriiiiiiiight. But then accordng to a friend of mine who blazed with her the other day when I was sick, she has a boyfriend. I think every decent girl in the world has a boyfriend now. I have a theory ... It seems like everygirl has a boyfriend because there are more guys than girls in the world now. (don't know for sure) and when a guy sees a girl he'll want to stake a claim to her knowing that there aren't too many left because they fear being alone (just like I do) So beautiful, interesting, light up the room kind of girls are taken (more often than not.... I have hope that some still remain) becasue of this.
So I had an amazing amazing band practise the other day. We are sooo so ready for our show. I found out we are playing with a band whos guitars and stuff sound like fear factory and their singer is a girl who can scream her lungs out... It'll be a contest to see who can scream better I guess ... I feel like we'll fit in at least but they have a strong following at this bar that they play at...so who knows we could get booed off the stage on principle. The five of us are always surprised at how good we sound together though. Its really the only thing Im confident about.
so on request heres some good qualities about myself as I have been very focused on the bad.
-I am a decent looking guy. I know I may say Im ugly and shit like that but I only half believe it it really is a feign that I do to explain why Im single.
-Im not really that fat either. a little pear shaped maybe but all in all I look pretty average wieght when I have my clothes on.
-Speaking of clothes I think Im a pretty snappy dresser... people tend to tell me I look pretty cool.
-I can write like a mofo. Im a good writer too at least a decent song writer.. I may not be the best speller (ie. decent, descent??) but thats okay cuz my lyrics always get good praise.
-I have become a good singer.. I didn't start out like it but yesterday the guys were giving me mad props especially because I was sick and giving it my all.
-Im reliable and loyal. Thats a great quality to have right? and Im funny my personality is sooo fucked up that it comes off as charming and good and different and unique which is also a good thing right?
uummm I guess thats it for now.
talk to you later kidos
thanks again for all the nice words
music: Straylight Run - A slow descent
mood: Recovering mentally and physically and from drugs.
"We always seem to, disagree, but I still enjoy their company"
-grade.
seems best to describe. But when someone who you've been good friends with for a while says they don't care about your wellbeing or whatever it tends to make me sad considering I don't often make good friends.
but anyways lets drop that. I have a question for all you SGs out there. I have been reading about this playboy thing and I was wondering do SGs (the models) acctually care about the members ... it seems like the SGs are jut annoyed by us ... at least in that thread they seem to be. It seems to me that SG is a little cliquey in its own way... The SG's hang out with SGs and rockstars or a select few members if they are lucky. I don't know maybe it just seems like its going to their head or something. Maybe I could be wrong. At least some of the SGs in Canada aren't like that. yaaay SGCanada.
The funniest thing happened today I was in class and the teacher was getting pissed at the lot of us for talking and this really hot girl who I have a slight crush on gets in trouble and is told to see the teach after class. So then this fat girl behind me asks me about my nose ring and if it hurt and how much did it hurt and how long did it take to heal and all that jazz and when I turn around the teacher is pointing at me fuming mad and says see me after class. So the two of us were told to sit at the front for the next class. I don't know if its the rest of the sememster or just the one class but the girl looked at me after and said "don't worry you get to sit with me" and gave me the thumbs up... heh aaaaallllriiiiiiiight. But then accordng to a friend of mine who blazed with her the other day when I was sick, she has a boyfriend. I think every decent girl in the world has a boyfriend now. I have a theory ... It seems like everygirl has a boyfriend because there are more guys than girls in the world now. (don't know for sure) and when a guy sees a girl he'll want to stake a claim to her knowing that there aren't too many left because they fear being alone (just like I do) So beautiful, interesting, light up the room kind of girls are taken (more often than not.... I have hope that some still remain) becasue of this.
So I had an amazing amazing band practise the other day. We are sooo so ready for our show. I found out we are playing with a band whos guitars and stuff sound like fear factory and their singer is a girl who can scream her lungs out... It'll be a contest to see who can scream better I guess ... I feel like we'll fit in at least but they have a strong following at this bar that they play at...so who knows we could get booed off the stage on principle. The five of us are always surprised at how good we sound together though. Its really the only thing Im confident about.
so on request heres some good qualities about myself as I have been very focused on the bad.
-I am a decent looking guy. I know I may say Im ugly and shit like that but I only half believe it it really is a feign that I do to explain why Im single.
-Im not really that fat either. a little pear shaped maybe but all in all I look pretty average wieght when I have my clothes on.
-Speaking of clothes I think Im a pretty snappy dresser... people tend to tell me I look pretty cool.
-I can write like a mofo. Im a good writer too at least a decent song writer.. I may not be the best speller (ie. decent, descent??) but thats okay cuz my lyrics always get good praise.
-I have become a good singer.. I didn't start out like it but yesterday the guys were giving me mad props especially because I was sick and giving it my all.
-Im reliable and loyal. Thats a great quality to have right? and Im funny my personality is sooo fucked up that it comes off as charming and good and different and unique which is also a good thing right?
uummm I guess thats it for now.
talk to you later kidos
thanks again for all the nice words
music: Straylight Run - A slow descent
mood: Recovering mentally and physically and from drugs.
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hopesfall:
so you saw brand new this weekend, well i saw Drown Mary, but you have not heard them, i saw brand new almost 2 years ago that was also the first time i saw finch
unique3:
sorry you were sick! 
that sucks. feeling better now? 
that sucks. feeling better now?