Okay so its time for an update yes? ...what? hah I saw this tv show where this guy said what at the end of everything I almost died laughing cuz I was hella-stoned at the time too. But I digress ........
.... So today was cool. I had classes and such and I saw those three adorable girls that used to be in my program. One of which is the girl Im in love with. You know what, I think Im on the healing process path with this. Im finally starting to realize that this will never happen. As hard as it is to accept that the most perfect girl in the world is not for me .. .it just something I have to accept right. I mean shes with someone else not me. Its not like she was choosing him over me she just met him first. But then she doesn't even know right.... sometimes I get confused over this whole thing and want to crawl into a hole and die. Its great seeing her but the after affects kinda suck.
Anywayz, after classes I got my pizza on and it was gooooood pizza. I was craving it during class and me and some freinds got a pepperoni, green pepper and onion pizza (just the waaaay I likes it) at this little unknown place and it was good.
After pizza Jamie (guitar player) calls me up and says hes going to visit mike today and so I said I must go.. since mike is a great friend of mine. It was weird at first seeing him like that .. he is on mass meds hes all spacey and stuff. But I had fun talking with him and remincing and junk. The people hes with there are major crazy. This one psycho was hitting on me. *sigh* only weirdo's hit on me... its true.
Now Im back here just chillin ..laughing at all the things mike and I were saying... we are such funny kids him and I. lol. Speaking of humor I've really embraced this self loathing humor I mean if Im gonna hate myself I might as well make a joke out of hating myself right?!!?!!? I've even begun to look at self loathing comics and I had this whole thing about David Spade... I was having a stoner talk with a buddy of mine and I was like "I don't like David Spade.. which I know is weird cuz hes a self loathing comic and thats sorta my style these days but David Spade is like .. well Im too cool to hate myself but I do it anyway." I thought that was a really smart observation by yours truly.
I guess thats all for now. Im feeling pretty alone right now looking at my four walls but thats nothing new really.
OH SGCanada kids (this means you kiscica..
) Im gonna need a time to show up in Toronto on Saturday if you guys want me there that is.
well thats all for now
peace in the middle east.
music: Matchbook Romance: Playing for Keeps
Mood: Tired and lonely and self loathing.
.... So today was cool. I had classes and such and I saw those three adorable girls that used to be in my program. One of which is the girl Im in love with. You know what, I think Im on the healing process path with this. Im finally starting to realize that this will never happen. As hard as it is to accept that the most perfect girl in the world is not for me .. .it just something I have to accept right. I mean shes with someone else not me. Its not like she was choosing him over me she just met him first. But then she doesn't even know right.... sometimes I get confused over this whole thing and want to crawl into a hole and die. Its great seeing her but the after affects kinda suck.
Anywayz, after classes I got my pizza on and it was gooooood pizza. I was craving it during class and me and some freinds got a pepperoni, green pepper and onion pizza (just the waaaay I likes it) at this little unknown place and it was good.
After pizza Jamie (guitar player) calls me up and says hes going to visit mike today and so I said I must go.. since mike is a great friend of mine. It was weird at first seeing him like that .. he is on mass meds hes all spacey and stuff. But I had fun talking with him and remincing and junk. The people hes with there are major crazy. This one psycho was hitting on me. *sigh* only weirdo's hit on me... its true.
Now Im back here just chillin ..laughing at all the things mike and I were saying... we are such funny kids him and I. lol. Speaking of humor I've really embraced this self loathing humor I mean if Im gonna hate myself I might as well make a joke out of hating myself right?!!?!!? I've even begun to look at self loathing comics and I had this whole thing about David Spade... I was having a stoner talk with a buddy of mine and I was like "I don't like David Spade.. which I know is weird cuz hes a self loathing comic and thats sorta my style these days but David Spade is like .. well Im too cool to hate myself but I do it anyway." I thought that was a really smart observation by yours truly.
I guess thats all for now. Im feeling pretty alone right now looking at my four walls but thats nothing new really.
OH SGCanada kids (this means you kiscica..
) Im gonna need a time to show up in Toronto on Saturday if you guys want me there that is.
well thats all for now
peace in the middle east.
music: Matchbook Romance: Playing for Keeps
Mood: Tired and lonely and self loathing.
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i dont know if I'm gonna go skating. . . . my skates are over 800 dollars so when we're done I'm not just gonna leave em at somebodies house while we go out and party, but I also dont wanna trek all the way back to my house to drop them off. So I may just meet everyone later. . . .we'll see, I'm having a bad day so far I dont even feel like doin anything