it's been sooooo long since i wrote anything. not much happens in harrison though. i'm going to nursing school. that should be slightly weird. i never could see myself as a nurse. i don't much like people. somehow i manage to like taking care of sick people though. i guess that doesn't make too much sense. i'm having problems with the fiance again. i have a major problem with jealousy. the weird thing is that i have never had this problem with any other person i have ever dated. these were people who cheated on me and just generally treated me like shit. i never once had a problem with them being attracted to other women. fantasy is a natural part of a healthy relationship. so why am i freaking out now? he has never given any reason for me to be freaking out. i'm just retarded i guess. 