I hate the way that more times that seems to pass, the more bitter I seem to get towards everything...
Is there any purpose or substance left in this existance...
I fear not..
My father used to always say 'the secret to success is consistancy of purpose'
to which I agree fully... do what thou will......... and you cant go wrong...
but what is my will? Im yet to find
Another weekend passes, fun and excitement babysitting adults for a living, mother of the club one could say
There are bits and pieces I do love and enjoy of course or else I wouldnt be there.
Mainly a few of my staff, they are the essence of positivity within my job for me...
The alchohol and substance abuse is a natural burden for me...
Then there is the endless bullshit, crap, abuse, egotistical hirake's, jealous and threatened beings shooting every defence of disaster they can towards you.. its a cut throat world, one I dont belong in, at least i feel i dont, then i seem lost and simply think I live in a world I dont belong in at all whatsoever, and I dont know how to change it... yet i crave it so much...
Sadly it always repeats itself..
This cycle or the endless search for a belonging, and the realisation of the fact that this is the way it is...
I get tired of meaningless, substanceless, blatently time wasting asssociations, experiences, converses, whatever they matter may be... is there substance and purity left in anything in our world? I cant find it.......
Weekends are odd for me, they effect me in a different way to most.. Yes I am social, I am always the host, the carer, the provider, the entertainer, the adviser, the assistant, and the unavoidable truth you could say.... I am overlly positive, i look forward to and embrace the moment, I appreciate the simple things, and in most cases see beauty in all... but at the end of the weekend I cant help but to feel its all sucked my soul a little more, it drains me, and makes me a little more darker with my views on society and the world around me, which is sad...
I suppose you could say I start to loose hope, the direction of our generation simply baffles me, Living amongst a civilisation that does not care for or considers their fellow man at all, let alone themself.. it seems there is no dignity...
maybe im just too old fashioned...
maybe it will pass.
maybe its not even so..
maybe i just dont belong here
maybe it will get better
maybe it willl become numb
maybe it will fade
maybe it will intensify
maybe it doesnt matter
maybe i speak a language no one understands
maybe there is no relevance in anything
maybe there is a lot more than we know
maybe time will solve it
maybe
Is there any purpose or substance left in this existance...
I fear not..
My father used to always say 'the secret to success is consistancy of purpose'
to which I agree fully... do what thou will......... and you cant go wrong...
but what is my will? Im yet to find
Another weekend passes, fun and excitement babysitting adults for a living, mother of the club one could say
There are bits and pieces I do love and enjoy of course or else I wouldnt be there.
Mainly a few of my staff, they are the essence of positivity within my job for me...
The alchohol and substance abuse is a natural burden for me...
Then there is the endless bullshit, crap, abuse, egotistical hirake's, jealous and threatened beings shooting every defence of disaster they can towards you.. its a cut throat world, one I dont belong in, at least i feel i dont, then i seem lost and simply think I live in a world I dont belong in at all whatsoever, and I dont know how to change it... yet i crave it so much...
Sadly it always repeats itself..
This cycle or the endless search for a belonging, and the realisation of the fact that this is the way it is...
I get tired of meaningless, substanceless, blatently time wasting asssociations, experiences, converses, whatever they matter may be... is there substance and purity left in anything in our world? I cant find it.......
Weekends are odd for me, they effect me in a different way to most.. Yes I am social, I am always the host, the carer, the provider, the entertainer, the adviser, the assistant, and the unavoidable truth you could say.... I am overlly positive, i look forward to and embrace the moment, I appreciate the simple things, and in most cases see beauty in all... but at the end of the weekend I cant help but to feel its all sucked my soul a little more, it drains me, and makes me a little more darker with my views on society and the world around me, which is sad...
I suppose you could say I start to loose hope, the direction of our generation simply baffles me, Living amongst a civilisation that does not care for or considers their fellow man at all, let alone themself.. it seems there is no dignity...
maybe im just too old fashioned...
maybe it will pass.
maybe its not even so..
maybe i just dont belong here
maybe it will get better
maybe it willl become numb
maybe it will fade
maybe it will intensify
maybe it doesnt matter
maybe i speak a language no one understands
maybe there is no relevance in anything
maybe there is a lot more than we know
maybe time will solve it
maybe
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What do they expect to find?
Perhaps a will chains a person to the future?
When they only exist in the present.
Perhaps if you knew your purpose you could never carry it out.