I am starting to feel a little better, still worried about my father, which is wierd for me. as you can see by my pic it's been rather hard to smile. but i am trying. it's not easy tho. went to work wednesday that was a disaster. i started shaking so badly i had to be sent home. thank goodness for Shinobi , he has helped me through this alot. just by being a focal point for me. i think the part thats freaking me out the most was my dad saying he loved me . that's been very hard for us to say to each other over the last 30 something years.dont get me wrong i love my dad but we have had a great difference of opinon for a very long time. 