sayuri

I am getting put through the biggest test in my life. It seems no matter how hard I try to better my life and situation the worse it gets. since I got back from Tampa things just really suck. I was in Tampa for about two months and thought coming home was gonna be the best thing for me. Boy was I ever so wrong. I live with my husband and 2 roommates and I feel like I am on my own. I have never felt so lonely in my life. My best friend of 9 years is tottally blowing me off. she was the one person that I could go to about anything. we've been through alot together and she just isn't there for me anymore. I feel like I'm walking in the bubble consisting only myself and my thoughts. I told my husband last night that I want to leave and start over all on my own. He got upset and pissed at me. I told him that he doesn't have time for me and that he doesn't even aknowledge my presence.which is true. I've been in Miami for 2 years now and have gone nowhere. not that I'm the clubbing type but I like to go out every once in a while. He'll plan to do things with his friends but never remembers anything when it comes to me. his friends all know this and tried talking to him. He tells me that they just feel sorry for me and don't know the real story. I am in such a hole. I am stuck at the apartment day in and day out. it's hell trying to find a job. espoecially when your car bombs out on you. I will keep my head up though. there is so much more shit on my mind. I'll leave that for another day.

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