saviorette

he makes me feel like a middle school girl all over again.
staying on the phone for hours and hours. *i totaled. it came to seven hours straight.
my cheeks hurt.
and for once, i feel good about something.
+an overwhelming sense of innocence.
+an uncontrollable giggle i can't stifle.
+a stupid crescent-shaped mouth.

lunch date tomorrow.

it's been awhile.

best way to get back...
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i'd rather be beside someone in a storm than in a bunker, alone.

this weekend has been so filled with, well, just filled.

i'll update soon.

if anyone cares to know, that is.

i miss

+being wrapped in someone's arms, hearing a steady, beautiful heartbeat.

+having my freshly-washed hair brushed while watching family guy and eating mac and cheese.

+depending on someone to open my beer and light my fag.

+sitting on the apartment's staircase, whispering our troubles and stifling our laughs, in fear that we might wake the neighbors in the wee hours of the morning.

+chris

less than a day and i'm already suffering from severe cabin fever.

god, i miss my homies so much. this has to be the most time i've spent away from them in the past month. i had to pack all my shit in trashbags yesterday. white plastic bags never seemed so depressing.

it feels weird to have no work obligations. i'm not adjusting to the...
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best thing i've seen on tv in a long time.

'can't get a date' with a guy named morgan who ends up with a dj named jenny doom.

ah, reality-tv-infused romance.

being home a lot gives me time to think.

and the stuff i'm thinking about hasn't really made me happy.

i've become the girl i promised i would never be. less than a year ago, i conjured up an idea of someone i loathed myself to be. and, here she is, to fuckin' wreck the day. right there in the mirror.

i need to get...
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my second run-in with the cops. it resulted in tears and jokes about coffee and donuts. and my car not being able to used anymore.

oh yeah, and moving back to the good ol' santa rita.

wa-wa-wa.

where: hawaii
when: within the next three months
who: chris, osh, bahia, ernest and me
why: why the fuck not?

chris left this morning. but it's been a good time together.
it sucks knowing he's going to be gone for awhile, but the sooner he leaves, the sooner he comes back to get our asses away from this place. how's that for a comforting thought for the sad?
the gu is too beautiful now. i used to hate everything about this place. but now, i...
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