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Fuck. So much has gone on. So many things have been felt and dealt with. So much hope, and faith in this is real. Fucked up as that much may be and us calling either other fucker in the most endearing way all day, it is what it is. He wants to get married sooner than later. I'd like to wait for Alaska. I think he will. It's rather sweet but sometimes... Well, whatever. I live for these moments...for this past week. I think last weekend was the hardest one I've ever had in my entire life, but somehow I get past it. I remember the first date and all that. Friday night he wanted to take me out on a date. We haven't been out alone together in so long. I met him at work and he kissed me hello, smiled...which melted my heart....and asked me if his coworker could join us. I said of course, I like the guy he works with. We've been out with him and his gf a few times. He took me BACK TO THE BAR HE LEFT ME AT ON OUR I DUNNO WHAT DATE...at first I thought it was funny. I didn't say anything until we were on our way home to have dinner. I told him it was funny to me that he would go there and not even think about it. He said "i told you I had an idea. This was my idea. I was making up for one of the biggest mistakes I've ever made and I had fun and left with you." Yup. Those are the moments I live here for. Oh my...


I found my camera!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have the day off tomorrow!! Be on the look out for pics! Well..only if you want to.

xoxoxxo