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The Means

I am starting to realize something about school. Well, I knew it all along and it is starting to sink in. Why does it have to feel that it has to validate my life? I don't feel very validated when I go there and feel as though I have my tail between my legs. There is just this aura of snottiness that goes around and around. Sure my teachers love music but I have been reading them like they are trying to save classical music. Granted, there is nothing wrong with it. Trust me, my new appreciation for Jazz and 3 great classical pieces have enriched my life over the past couple of years. Why does it seem as though, that only defines music. I am sorry, but The Ramones define music too. There is nothing to figure out there musically. It is beautiful in its own right.
Prerequisites have a handle on your school career. Seems to have this forceful idea behind them. I feel as though I am being forced to do all this stuff that is required. Why is that? I still don't know. I am not being forced to be there. If I stop going based on not agreeing with the system, I will feel like a quitter.

Its a bitch of a balance to sort out.